My cold is still lingering, but it’s still been the easiest cold I’ve ever had.

I called Larry earlier even though tomorrow’s his birthday. I told him I was calling today cuz I didn’t know if he’d be working tomorrow or what my schedule would be due to my cold. Also, I figured Tammy would call tomorrow and keep him on the phone all day. He laughed when I said that cuz that’s exactly what he told me when he called me the day before my birthday.

He says there are 60 inches of snow and it’s -16º! No wonder he hasn’t gotten his birthday card yet. Jenny couldn’t have gotten her letter and certificate yet, either.

I also quickly talked to Sandy and Jennifer, but Larry was at a friend’s house.

I got two letters from Kim who said, “By now you should’ve gotten the stamps.” I haven’t gotten any stamps yet and that fucking mailman better not have misdelivered them.

Tom was watching me feed the birds the other day and according to him, there are Mexican doves out there besides pigeons and sparrows.

Later today he’s gonna pick up a bottle of ink so we can try to re-ink a ribbon. He’s skeptical, but I believe it’ll work.

Later...

I forgot to mention that Andy brought over a purple dress which he found in the dumpster and it is absolutely gorgeous and it fits perfectly. Tom said he’ll let me know when to try it on for him, rather than me surprising him with it. That’ll be never or a very long time from now.

Lots of birds are out back now in the iron fortress that Andy describes our backyard as.

Tom worked on fixing the washer machine to make it fill up faster.

As usual, he’s waiting till the end of his day for sex when he’ll be more tired and will have it easier as far as holding back goes.

As far as his new theory goes, he says he realized his “problem” is in his subconscious. He says he’s gonna look at things differently with a different attitude and not do so many things for a specific purpose.

Well, I don’t buy it. He managed to start to convince me this would work and he said he really believes he hit upon the right answer/solution and that he had to go through everything else we tried to get to this point, but it’s all bullshit as far as I see it. I see this now for what it really is. It’s all part of his game. To get me all psyched up for nothing only to let me down. Well, I ain’t gonna fall for it and be a foolish naïve little sucker.