The last thing I said the last time I wrote isn’t nearly as shocking as the things I’m going to write about this time. First, though, it turns out that Dedra, Renee and Corinne all live in my old apartment on the first floor around the corner on Locust St. What a weird coincidence, huh?

That’s nothing compared to what I’m about to write about now. First, I was on the phone one night with a girl who called from the 900-line whom I never bothered to call back, when my hero Bill H called saying that the Dunaeffs at Dunaeff School of Performing Arts was closing cuz they’re retiring. Jean, I guess, has had a slight stroke. So Bill went on to say how he hated to see a low-income person have to back out and that he needs a place to teach in Springfield. He’s from Northampton and also gay as I pretty much figured. I told him my place was huge and I’d be honored and thrilled to have him use my place for him to teach. So he came over and saw how huge my living room is and he said he wasn’t trying to use me for a place to teach but that he really liked working with my voice and that if he did and it works out ok he’d teach me for free.

Me and Andy had an awesome night last night. To start with, about two nights ago I was fooling around on the phone just dialing randomly hoping for a woman to answer cuz I was gonna hit on her, but instead this guy answered but I hit on him just the same anyway.

When I did hit on him, assuming he’d say yes like the typical male would, I was shocked when he said no. I asked why he said no and he says, “Cuz I’m gay.” So I told him I was too, and explained that I was just fooling around on the phone, and through the discussion, I learned that he was a very well-known regular at the Pub and the Frontier. His name is Dedra and dresses up in drag, then I talked to another drag queen who was one of his roommates. A black guy who goes by the name of Renee which I immediately remembered having seen before.

So, last night me and Andy went to both the Pub and the Frontier to see the lip sync contest in which Renee won. In 2nd place was this guy who looks a lot like George Michael who’s also a roommate of Dedra’s and Renee, and also a guy named Corinne, and they’re all so friendly.

Dedra was shocked to see how beautiful I was, she said, and also that she’d spread the word about me and that they said they know people just as feminine as me. Also, they seem pretty drug-free. Dedra insists that I’ll have no problem getting a decent, feminine woman.

Sure.

Anyway, Andy and I ended up playing piano and I sang very well. My voice is getting better and better. Before I sang, Corinne told me he could tell I was a trained singer cuz of the way I breathe and the way my vocal cords vibrate in my throat and by looking at my mouth. Even in a singer’s sleep, they breathe differently. I remember Kacey waking me up saying she thought I was dead cuz I was so still.

The day I met that girl Lisa it turns out I was very wrong expecting an ugly or plain-looking girl. She was absolutely gorgeous, but I was right about that not being allowed by God. Plus, I figured before I ever saw her and heard how stable and mature she sounded over the phone that she’d never call to get together with me again. However, I really find it no great loss as I really need to be alone. I won’t say I never have thoughts or desires but I will say that I don’t want any hassles or heartaches. Also, I’m so used to the way things are.

Ma’s b-day was yesterday and when I called she sounded like a bitch. Why I don’t know, but does she always need a reason to be a bitch?

Today I spoke to Dad and when he and Mom come up from Florida in August, they’re gonna help me get out of here. I’ve decided I definitely need to move to Connecticut as I need family, this city’s getting so bad, I want to have a child, and there’s just nothing at all to do here. I’m so bored! I really want to be near my nieces and possibly make a little extra money on the side teaching music or sign language to kids or adults or whoever. Also, if I’m not sterile, I really want to have a baby while I’m young before I get really going full force musically.