I’m pretty tired today. Two more days of this shit, though this time, I can’t blame it all on the freeloaders, believe it or not. I’d still have to hold my schedule for the appointment I’ve got to get my ear canal cleaned out after I see Scot. Come Saturday, I’m gonna sleep all day!

I really hope Scot gets his ass in and out of here this week, so he doesn’t go waking me up next week.

The knee pain I had for several months has gone away, fortunately. At first I wondered if it was early arthritis, but now I wonder if maybe there were ligaments or tendons I injured (though it seems hard to believe I injured both knees) that got strengthened up by jogging.

Tom’s getting ready to go to work soon and though I haven’t the energy to run, perhaps I’ll at least work out. Maybe do a little singing and get started on my book’s conclusion.

I have stuck to having under 1000 calories for 5 days now and have lost 5 pounds. However, I don’t know why I lost 3 pounds the first day and am the same as I was yesterday at 119 pounds.

Our satellite TV’s back so I was watching some forensics shows last night. I was also watching a documentary discussing home safety. A couple of stories were about poor, poor black welfare bums and all the shit they have to take, but once again, what about us? I’m still waiting for whites who are victimized and discriminated against by minorities to be brought into the spotlight. It’s definitely an issue that needs to be addressed more. You hear about the poor, poor blacks and the sob stories from the Mexicans, but what about us?

One case dealt with this guy living in rural Colorado. For 20 years his neighbors did things like calling him racial slurs and trying to run him over, then they broke into his house. The county sheriff’s department did nothing. The only thing that made me wonder about the black guy’s credibility is why it took him 20 years of supposedly being tormented for him to leave. And why would he put a sign up to have a tag sale if the whole town hated him?

Another one was a single mother who moved into a house in Philly. They were like, hey, we don’t want you here. We don’t want our neighborhood run down, we don’t want the gangs, the drugs, etc. Robins and blue jays don’t mix and neither do we. Just 5 days later, the woman moved.

Why oh why couldn’t this have happened when we got freeloadered?! Why couldn’t the neighborhood terrorize them into moving out in just 5 days?! They only have the upper hand in the courts. Other than that, Arizona’s supposed to be one of the highest states as far as prejudice goes, which is probably why it took so long for this state to acknowledge Martin Luther King Day. If those people who badgered the blacks in Colorado and Philly had done that out here, there’s no way they’d have gotten away with it like they did. As far as I know, though, they didn’t send anything in the mail, making it a felony. See, you can call someone a slur to their face, but God help you if you say so in the mail!

At the same time I’ve met more good people out here, I think the people here are worse in general. They’re a little more selfish and vindictive if you ask me. They’re self-absorbed, in their own little worlds, oblivious to others or whether or not their actions may be affecting others. And when they do take others into consideration, it seems it’s usually to fuck them over. Yet everybody out here believes in God. I’ve never met anyone here who didn’t. Why is it that it’s usually the assholes that believe? Do they think that if they’re faithful and religious it’ll make their evil deeds acceptable?

Yeah, I’d say the younger woman does live in back and so do at least 3 kids. They were out running around earlier. In front, of course. I think we’re the only ones who do things in back of our house and who aren’t outside several times a day. I’d be outside more if we had porches or an Arizona room. I’d definitely be outside more if we had a pool and it was hot. If I still smoked, I’d probably be outside when I wanted a cigarette and that’d be a few times an hour!

I couldn’t hear the kids, though if I’d been outside, I’m sure I’d have heard a squeal here and a squeal there.