Still no Scot! Makes me wonder if perhaps he might’ve gotten in trouble and they’re just telling everyone he’s on medical leave while he’s either suspended or being investigated. I hope he never returns if you ask me. I never did like him much.

We talked about it and decided we’d do it right and get a grid fence after all. Like I told him, I don’t want to half-ass it when it comes to the fence and always be wondering if anything’s squeezed its way under.

Now I just wonder how far into the summer we’re going to have to go without an AC in whatever vehicle we’re driving. He says he’s going to work on the truck this weekend so we can haul the fence in in one trip rather than several.

Next welfare bum day we’re going to stop at Walmart for the Hawaiian outfits, plus we’ll exchange the bougies. Hopefully, they’ll let us get oleanders instead.

I made it clear to Tom that I won’t be his scapegoat, nor will I be teased and played with as far as sex goes. Either we’re friends or we’re not. None of this I-want-to-screw-but-you-this-or-you-that shit, I told him, and if we do get it on, it can’t be too often or too infrequent or else I’ll just get that irritation down there that I used to get. If he really wants to be more than friends, then we need to do it about once every week or two. Meanwhile, as I also told him, if we remain friends, I won’t seek out women to play around with, but if opportunity knocks, I just might open the door. No matter what happens, though, I’ll always love him and he’ll always be my number one. I’ll always want to share my life with him, even if he decides we’re not going to share our bodies with each other. I just don’t want to be jerked around is all. I don’t want him telling me one thing and doing another. I’ll be okay with whatever he chooses, I just want him to make his choice and act on it for once. I don’t want to be strung along like I have been these last couple of years or else I’ll have to be the one to make the decision. One of us has to make it, though I’d prefer for him to be the one.

He’s going to have to go back to doing my backups on CDs. My burner’s simply not reliable enough.