I’ve begun the first of two disciplining tactics. I want to train my body to need no more than 8 hours of sleep, then in Oregon, I want to train my body to have only 1200 calories a day. These 10-hour sleeps and 2000-or-more-calorie days are ridiculous and I need to put my foot down as far as curbing these bad habits. I decided that if I’m hungry and tired – tough. It’ll be good for me to do this. I know the hunger pains are going to be a nightmare with my monstrous appetite, but I want to learn to live with it. I still can’t figure out why I need so much food. I don’t know if it’s because I do a lot or because I’m more active than the norm or what. Whatever the reason, my body needs more food and more sleep than it should and I’m going to try to get it used to a more reasonable amount. I don’t know if I’ll ever get used to the constant hunger and frustration of never eating enough to fill me up, but I may be able to adapt to the 8-hour routine. I’ll probably have days where I’m more tired than others. I’ve weighed pretty much the same for a long time now, so I guess this is pretty much where I’ll stay indefinitely. I decided it’s okay if I don’t lose weight, but I don’t want to gain anymore either. As it is, the 130s is way too much for me, but if that’s where my body is settled and feels most comfortable, I’m not going to struggle to change it; just my cal intake. At 1200 cals I’ll slip down to 127, then my body will automatically maintain that as long as I don’t go pigging out. It’s a shame I won’t lose more than a few pounds for all my hunger and hard work, but at least I shouldn’t gain.

The reason for the cut in food isn’t so much about my weight as it is about saving money. I’m tired of wanting things I can’t have. I also want to put it towards the new house. The shell may only be about $14,000, but the whole thing’s going to cost around $60,000. Your average person takes home $18,000 - $24,000 a year, so that’s a few years at the very least before we can finish it. We’re going to build it in modules so we don’t have to wait years to move in. We’ll start with just a room and a bath that will eventually become a little workshop or storage area once it is all built.

We have about a dozen different auctions going right now. We even decided to auction off the small critter tubes and accessories, one lot at a time. If all goes well, there’ll be 6 lots. One will be a big lot with a little of everything. A few will consist of tubes of various kinds, connectors, small balls and small wheels. The last two will be those two Critter Trail houses I never should’ve gotten like I did through Memolink.

What’s amazing is that within an hour of him listing it, some of his old shit has gotten bids. I’m a little surprised the Barbies haven’t gotten any bids yet, but I’ll be really surprised if they don’t sell. If there was anything we put up that I have the most faith in selling, though, it’s Barbie.