Romeo stopped by for a visit. I even saw her return with him at one point when I walked up to the living room window. I wonder where they go.

I made my own pillow a couple of nights ago using Chris’s batting. I stuffed it into a pillowcase, then sewed the open end. It’s a lot better than the old flat one I just threw out, and it saves us $5.

I emailed the doll people to ask how hard the dolls would be to move at my height/weight, and the woman replied saying that as a 5’ 10” 200-pound woman, she can only move the smaller dolls (this would be the dolls in the 80-pound range and not 100-pound range). She recommended going to the local grocery store and getting a 50 to 100-pound sack of potatoes to haul around and see how I do. Also, people use pulley systems with the hooks on back of the doll’s necks or wheel them around in wheelchairs or office chairs when they want to move them any distance.

I swear there are times when if I could snap my finger and be a giant, I would. With all the stereotypes out there that believe bigger is stronger, how many of those who have threatened me in any way if I were around 6’ and 200 pounds myself would’ve dared to? Probably not many.

Yesterday, I was a little bummed out. Not depressed like I was in the motels, but a little bummed at the obvious knowledge that there is no ideal place for us to live. We’ve been drifting from one problem place after another for most of our adult lives, so I don’t see why we’d one day suddenly find the ideal place and stay there for 20 years. I think it’s become rather obvious that we’re always going to be moving around, and that the places that are nicer are going to be the ones harder to stay in, for reasons that’ll probably revolve around money like most aspects of our lives do.

Maybe the best way to stop being stuck in places I don’t want to be in is to just stay there. If I just resign to the fact that something wants me living so close to others and just accept it along with any noise it may bring, maybe I’ll be ok. Look how few problems we’ve had since being here which I thoroughly believe is due to us being in our “proper” place, so to speak. If I could just make myself want to be in the city! How easier it would be on both of us.