I’m surprised by how many spiders I’ve been finding in here despite the fact that it’s winter. They’re small, but they’re spiders nonetheless, so I sprayed around the door a bit.

No Romeo yesterday, but she’s been taking off early in the mornings for a while.

Not surprisingly, the search at the Work Connection didn’t look promising. Something is determined as hell to hold us back financially! But why??? And for how long??? Anyway, he’s going to apply at Walmart today. Despite the shitty pay, I doubt God would allow him to work there because we’d get a discount on things and it’d be easy to transfer to a Walmart in Redding. But why would God ever want to make things easier on us? I just don’t understand why life must be such a struggle for us, and when it isn’t as much of a struggle, like how we’re not struggling as much now as we were in the fall, why we must be stuck at a standstill? It sure feels like we’re stuck in a rut anyway. It feels like all our dreams and goals are impossible, with the exception of moving to California. I know we’ll get there someday. It just may take a few more years.

There’s a job opening in Tulelake, California which is 26 miles away, just below the border. He may apply for that. If hired, we could rent a house in that area. That’s Siskiyou County and not Shasta, and I had had a vibe about Siskiyou County when I went through that brochure. The weather wouldn’t be any better than here, though, because Tulelake, which is even smaller than K-Falls, is still at a pretty high elevation. But we’d be 26 miles closer to Redding.

I miss warmer climates so bad! I’m so sick of always being cold. It seems the further into my day I get, the colder I get. Especially my hands. It’s like they turn to ice!

Despite our usual impoverished situation, we’re going to get me new pillows this Saturday. Tom feels I deserve it and I agree. We’ve had to wait on and put off enough shit, and we still could use a lot more shit as it is.

Someday. Someday that queen’s going to step off her throne and into her coffin. It just won’t happen nearly fast enough!