Coincidentally or not (after the bad Paula dream and the skinny dream) I still haven’t heard from Paula and I’ve lost another pound. I’m now 145.8. I’m barely eating much, working out hard and dealing with extreme hunger, fatigue and sometimes dizziness. The body just doesn’t handle things as well as it does when we’re younger. But I am getting used to it, little by little.

What I’m not getting used to is all the landscaping around here. They have really been annoying the shit out of me both today and yesterday. The going project is to collect all the leaves. We don’t have real winters here, but we have fall. Kind of. There are some types of trees with leaves that turn colors and fall off just like in places like the northeast. Well, what doesn’t land in people’s spaces lands in the streets and the common areas, so that’s what I’ve had to listen to buzzing away. Next, I’m sure there’ll be something else. I knew that the end of the year would produce more outdoor activity. November is supposed to deliver something like 2.5” of rain. I wouldn’t be surprised if we couldn’t even bleed an inch of rain out of the sky with the way things have been. It sure would make things more peaceful around here if it could rain more often during weekdays! We’re on for sunshine and 86° tomorrow. We may need the AC in the late afternoon for an hour or two. This is one seriously insulated house, though! We’d need way more heat and cooling if we were still in the trailer. But now that we’re in a house we only need the heat really late at night.

Nane and I have a little cyber date set up for tonight. For now, my morning workout is done and the bathrooms are clean.

I was sitting here reflecting upon those who have died or who are facing serious health issues. Some of them weren’t the greatest people, but they’d stay in my life forever if forever were possible. Meanwhile, you’ve got people like Maliheh who play games with people and then discard them as if they are NOTHING and I just had to ask her if she ever has any regrets? I know I won’t get an answer, but I just wonder at times if she ever feels any guilt over those she’s manipulated and then so casually tossed aside like yesterday’s trash. How do you do that and still sleep ok at night?

I asked Aly for Molly’s Twitter handle. I want to see if I can get a sense of whether or not she’s online when I get questions on Ask, cuz I realize some of them could be from her and not just Kim.