I'm back on a night schedule as usual. I should try to get back on days, as Mom's coming within the next two weeks. I also should be in court within a few weeks, as I spoke to Carol today. She told me it won't drag on for weeks and weeks, but I sure hope it's before or after Mom's here. That's all I need: for her to say, for example, September 5th is the only day she'll be able to be here, then right after that, I get a subpoena for that day. I hope I get that subpoena fast so I know when I gotta deal with this shit.

I spoke with Andy, and that helped, as all day today and yesterday, I've done nothing but sit and cry. It isn't just about the tapes either. More and more, I miss him and want to move out there. I miss the things we do together, and I could easily get a job at Denny's with him. I'd have plenty of places to explore and be able to go swimming all the time. He could get me an apartment. The chances of getting singing jobs are much higher.