They’re home next door today. I wonder why and what they’re doing? Yesterday and today they’ve been watering their yard. I know their front door is open, cuz their front door is across from their side living room window that can be seen from the music room. So, when I look out, I can see straight through if their blinds are open and I can see their door open.

Later…

They left next door right after I typed my last entry.

My birds were hanging out on the wall that divides their driveway from the side of the house where I was looking out from the music room window. They were trying to get into the sides of the attic next door, but they couldn’t fit in through the strips of wood.

When I said I can hear the kids two yards down, it meant that I will, but haven’t yet. When it cools down, I expect to, but I hope I’m wrong.

On that show Law & Order, 1 captain, 4 cops, 1 DA and 1 assistant DA has left the show and now they’re gonna kill the 2nd assistant DA off in a car accident, so I guess that means she’s leaving and will be replaced with someone new. This will be the 8th person to leave the show.

I’ve got more to write about later, but right now, I want to go watch Little House on the Prairie.

Later…

I just ended up chatting with Andy for the last hour. I was telling him about the Melatonin and he was talking about Quinn and his new roommate Laura who he works with. I hope this new roommate of his works out since she’s a tweaker. He says she’s been helpful and responsible, and I hope she stays that way and that it works out. He says he’d like to have her around for about 6 months, even though he prefers to live alone, so he can get out of debt.

As I was checking to see if I had any email, I thought to myself, wouldn’t it be nice if Dad left a message while he was there? Dad’s on his way back now. Anyhow, he did leave me a message saying:

Hi shorty, it’s your favorite dad visiting his favorite daughter. Hope you and Tom are both well. The weather is nice and comfortable here. Heading back to Florida Wednesday morning, Tammy picked up mom’s ring and I will be bringing that and the card back to mom. You and Tom stay well and cool.

Love Daddy O.

P.S. Tone down your four-letter words on AOL because of your nieces who also use this computer.

I had to laugh when he said what he said about the 4 letter words since Tammy swears like a truck driver. Also, I had no idea that the kids read my messages. Tammy says they’re not supposed to, but that Dad was right there when she was trying to reply to one of my messages and she hit the wrong button. She was describing one of the two mistakes I’ve made myself a few times.

I also told Tammy about the Melatonin and will tell my folks, too.

I haven’t seen Chicken Pigeon in almost a week now. Tom says he thinks he met someone and is nesting with her, but will be back someday. He said don’t be surprised if Measles disappears for a while, too. Measles is a female, though, and Tom said she was being hit on. All the male birds always hit on the female birds.

Now, as for last night - I realize I should not get my hopes up. I know that Tom’s suggested lots of other things that he said he was sure would help him and they didn’t. I know he could still have a physical problem or that he could still be playing with me. I’m not the only one that can act and seem believable, so I know there’s a chance that he could be knowingly and intentionally just playing with my head, waiting to get a kick out of my seeing the joke was on me when he never cums. He still could be lying about wanting a kid and God could still be determined to see that I never have a kid.

Later…

I could punch myself right now! Why do I always have to be so stupid and ruin things when they’re going so well? Tom and I were lying in bed, ready to experiment with that position when I said he needed to change shampoos cuz his hair had that medicated smell. I didn’t mean to hurt him and I should’ve known better that he’s still a more sensitive guy than usual.

Then my mind started flying with thoughts like, that position would never work. Other things he suggested didn’t, so why should this work? Don’t kid yourself or set yourself up to fall yet again.

Then I realized that whether he cums or not, I have a goal of my own which I’d like to try to accomplish while enjoying something new. I’d rather try it and have neither of us cum, than never try it and always wonder if either of us could’ve and would’ve.

Anyway, we talked it out and it’s over. Tom says neither of us should blame me, but I still feel it was my fault. I should think harder before speaking as the last thing I want to do is hurt, upset, or annoy Tom and he knows this.