It hit the low 60s today which is a bit warm for Oregon. I still don’t expect to trade in my sweatpants for shorts before another couple of months, though. The leaves are just starting to bud on the trees.

When I think back to the girl back east who sat alone with no one but losers for friends and who was in touch with an abusive family, it’s hard to believe that person was me! Getting my “family” out of the picture was by far one of the best things I ever did. I’ve never had any regrets since. My life back then consisted of nothing but getting up, going to cash in my food stamps, having to deal with buses and cabs to and from doctor’s appointments in what was usually pretty lousy weather, then coming back home to make prank phone calls, listen to music, drink coffee, smoke cigarettes and fantasize in my journal. It seems that even my worst of times with Tom beats my average times back east simply because I didn’t have a life back east, whereas my worst of times with Tom was still a life.

I got Ashley’s shoes and the Cher wig. They look great on her. I just wish she wasn’t so damn pale! The copper wig looks best of all on her because it matches her eyebrows and goes with her overall coloring best, but to have variety is nice. I’ll get the red wig next week.

Tomorrow I’m making a $35 order at a place that has cheap yet nice stuff. I’m getting a terry robe, a terry dress, and a lotion applicator that should be easier to use than the one I’ve been using with the various attachments. I can use it when Tom’s either asleep or at work. I’d say that the scalp massager is definitely speeding up my hair growth. Pulled straight it’s only 2” from the crack of my ass.

Anyway, the Cher wig is awesome. How I wish I had straight black hair like that, not too thick, not too thin. Instead, I’m stuck with a thick curly brown mane, sprinkled with gray. At least I know I could grow my hair as long as the wig, which comes to the middle of my thighs and just below Ashley’s ass.

What’s really weird is that they said Amazon said Ashley’s shoes would come via UPS, and the wig store said the wig would come via DHL. However, the shoes came by regular mail and the wig came via UPS! Weird. Really weird.

I won an autographed book by Sylvia Kurtz whom I’ve never heard of, and a book from Ebony, though they wouldn’t say what book and I can’t remember the sweep. Ebony is a black site, so I’m sure it’s just about gangs, welfare, drugs, rap music and that sort of shit. Something to add to my sale pile.

They’ve been working on the house diagonally across from us as well as building a porch on the front of the house that’s two houses away in front and to the other side. Fortunately, I haven’t been woken up or distracted from my work. Just a little hammering at times.

We don’t want to get our hopes up, but what Tom said happened at work may be a good thing, not that I still don’t fear they’ll close their doors forever, even though he’s learned that the owners aren’t exactly rich enough to quit working. Well, they had some visitors today from a technical company that orders parts to build various electronics. At first Tom thought they were coming to see if there was any chance they’d shut down for fear of placing an order they’d never get, but the truth is that they’re checking out and deciding who to use for certain parts. Supposedly they have over 400 companies that they use to make parts for them and they want to cut the number of companies in half. So as they told everyone there if they’re on the half that they keep, which I vibe they are, then their work will double. If there’s no hope for another raise or partnership, at least he’ll be doing overtime again, though he enjoyed taking a break from it for a while.