My periods are getting stranger by the minute. I hardly had much of a flow. Just maybe menopause is starting to set in, though I’m still rather young, and I have no hot flashes. Hot flashes are something I could definitely use in this frigid state! It’s April yet it’s snowing and it’s below freezing, too! Another 2½ months to go of winter – argh! I can’t believe some people consider this the high desert, but they do. Ain’t nothing deserty about this place to me! I don’t consider a desert to be a place where it snows and is this cold for this long no matter how dry it may be at times. Some people also consider this town a rural town, but to me it’s just a small town. I don’t consider this rural at all. Too many businesses, too many people, too many houses too close together.

Since I’m not allowed to make money, I do things to try to save it when I’m not blessed with spending it. I started turning down the gas heater in the living room when I go to bed. Then I turn it back up when I get up.

Buying the cones was a big mistake. They totally suck cuz I have a problem keeping them lit! Every other one I light goes out on me. I’m going to stick with sticks or with just pouring oil into the burner or warmer.

I won a coupon for a free half-gallon of Dole’s flavored juices. I love those juices and they’re kind of pricey, too. I also got that Mattel toy. No one who works in Tom’s department has kids, so it’ll just get added to my sale pile.

Every day I fear Tom’s bosses will decide to live the easy life, forget about what their dad started, and close their doors forever, leaving Tom to find a new job. He assures me that unemployment checks will hold us over till he finds a new job and that getting cut back to around $9 an hour wouldn’t be much different than $13 because the less you make, the less they take. Also, he wouldn’t have to pay a buck an hour for insurance. It’s only small businesses such as where he works that makes you do that in Oregon.

This may all be well and good to know, but still, we don’t need it. We don’t need it at all. It would still be enough of a setback for us, even if it didn’t exactly leave us homeless and starving, and it’s exactly something God would do right about now too, is say, “Okay, you guys have had your fun for a while, now I’ll just yank the carpet right out from under your feet and make you start all over again while I get a big old kick out of watching you struggle to pick yourselves back up.”

We might even be forced to license the truck which would cost a couple of hundred bucks a month if he couldn’t get a job close to home.

For now, I’m doing what I said I’d do…enjoying the money while it lasts. I got a hell of a deal for just $30. For an amazing $30 I squeezed in 6 new pairs of panties, 2 new bras, and a pair of gold pumps for Ashley. I just hope they fit as her feet are so narrow. I also hope they hide the toes too since they’re open-toed shoes. I’d have preferred closed-toed ankle pumps, but they were too expensive or were out of her size, which is an 8. I decided to go with gold rather than black or white because gold is sort of in between the two. Also, the style of shoe I chose goes with both dressy and casual attire.

In a $40 separate order, I also got that 40” Cher wig.