I always thought politics were rather twisted and complicated. How could it have ended up on the ballot in the first place if 6 months prior to last November the state deemed it unconstitutional for gays to be denied the right to marry??? I just don’t get that. And how could ND have had abortion rights on their ballot? Roe vs. Wade says it’s unconstitutional for a woman to be denied that right.

Why is this world so crazy and so full of control freaks?! I always try to ignore those who feel they have to judge me or try to make me someone I’m not, but when it’s issues like this that could affect almost anyone, it’s kind of hard to just ignore it. If the gays lose that’s really gonna help pave the way for other groups, including Jews, to become targets of discrimination as well. See why I’m concerned?

Amazingly, Sydney now has 12 bids and is up to $31.

I have about 3 more hours to sit and stress over our unemployment check. I’m not nearly as stressed out as I was in the motel when day after day our new debit card failed to show up and allow us to access our money, but until the money’s in our hands, I won’t fully relax. I tell myself, “Relax anyway. The worst that could happen is you don’t get it, Jesse kicks you out, and you guys kill yourselves to escape the streets, sparing yourselves from another 40 years of poverty and other bullshit.”

But that old survival instinct makes it easier said than done. Still, I have to wonder how many more years we’re going to have to be teased with our survival. How many??? I haven’t had any bad dreams or vibes, and since they haven’t failed us yet, I’m sure Tom’s right in that it’ll be at the mail place today. There’s nothing we can do about it either way. All I know is that I’m not paying any late fees if Jesse asks for them. I don’t think he will, though. Especially since he’s in the same boat we are, and we paid half the rent early. It’s just that while the last few days have been quiet for the most part, I’m not paying late fees for barking I didn’t come here to listen to!