I’m not surprised news of
Bill Cosby’s sentencing isn’t all over Facebook as it no doubt would be if he
were white. No one wants to say anything bad about a black person even if it’s
true lest they be not so politically correct and deemed racist for doing so.
SMH
Got through the day yesterday
with no anxiety and so far I’m good today as well even though I’ve only been up
a couple of hours. I’m just tired. I was tired yesterday as well.
Went out walking and met a
frail, petite but friendly woman named Melanie. We passed each other on the way
down to the street before the lake and then again as I was walking back up it.
She liked “all my pink.” I had on a pink cap with sparkles, a pink shirt and
pink sneakers. Pink panties too, not that she could see that, LOL. Her favorite
color is pink too, as I think is most women’s.
I realize I’m never going to
be able to lose weight, regardless of the effect it may have on my medication’s
effect on me, as long as I keep getting stuck and my body automatically resets
its weight every time I lose a few pounds. I also realize I’m far from alone. I
did a little research and found that numerous people have the same problem. But
still, it’s like my body absolutely refuses to let it go under about 152 or
153. I may have to not eat at all in order to change that once I’ve gone a day
where I haven’t shit, but I don’t think I could do that so I think losing
weight is forever out of the question if I’m going to just keep going into
auto-reset mode.
I would ride my bike more
often in the daytime when it wasn’t too hot if this place wasn’t so hilly. This
terrain is even more mountainous than New England. It’s just that it really
helps to get a running start up the hills and I love to fly down the hills as
well, which isn’t as safe in the daytime. So I mostly keep the bike for at
night but the nights are too cold now. Maybe things will be different when
we’re on flat terrain if I can deal with the humidity and all that.
I haven’t heard that car in a
while now which is nice, not that there aren’t plenty of other loud vehicles to
make up for it. But that one was especially annoying so I’m fine with it not
coming around. Maybe I’m still a better “influencer” than I realize and I sent
it into an accident or caused it to break down so bad they can’t afford to fix
it.
Pondering mysteries is what I
love to do. I love to think, analyze, speculate and wonder. And so I wonder
just how much Kathleen may know about me from browsing around online. I realize
not everyone is as curious as I am but it’s still hard to believe she’s never
Googled me. I can’t believe the dentist had her cop husband check her patients’
backgrounds, particularly mine, or else my case would have come up, and
vindicated or not, I would think she would have mentioned it to Kathleen. If
that had been the case, I don’t see why Kathleen would want to be friends with
me.
I also wonder if she’s crazy
because of the way she seems to be interested in me, regardless of what way
that may be. I know crazy comes in all shapes and sizes and that they can often
blend into society and appear as normal as ever. I get that. Anyone can be
crazy. Even someone who can hold a decent job for years. She’s certainly not
crazy in the way Kim, Molly and Marie can be. It’s just that other than Tom,
I’m used to attracting crazies for friends regardless of what they look like. I
still say I’ll never hear from her which would be easier and potentially less
trouble but if I do it’s not likely to be this year. She may wait 6 months
until she would have seen me anyway had she still been working when I had my
next appointment.
I decided to start using my
other Twitter account again to promote my Bubbly voice posts. To draw attention
to my account I’m leaving comments on trending issues but it hasn’t seemed to
work so far. You know how it is, if you’re not famous or infamous, no one’s
interested.
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