Doc D wants me to see an endocrinologist to discuss other options for my medication. I’m not sure what other options there are but kudos to her for not saying I’m “just anxious” and referring me to a shrink. Maybe it’s different here in Florida so maybe that will include other options I don’t know about that I could learn from the endocrinologist.

So we checked out the one she referred. It’s an Indian lady. Figures. So already that’s half my doctors not being from here. We’re not sure if she’s covered under our insurance or what insurance we’re going to have. It’s open season so in the next week or so we should know what insurance and what plan we’re going to be under. Right now we have Bright Health and the medical group is Advent Health.

I still worry that my only options are going to be to increase the dose and take the anxiety or remain out of range and take the hypo symptoms. I would still take the latter any day. Yesterday was my first calm day in a while. Decided I would give the 88s one more try but not before I take four days of 75s in a row. This is really the only way I can find out for sure if it was the dose increase that brought the anxiety back. He thinks it’s still a combination of hormones and me being on nights but unless it was another grand coincidence, I’m leaning toward the meds. I just don’t think I'm meant to have a normal thyroid anymore than I was ever meant to conceive. So I think that no matter what I try or do to trick my thyroid into being normal, I’m destined to fail to succeed. Can’t help but wonder, though, did my mother have similar problems with this fucking medication?

Had a little bit of heart racing yesterday but nothing too extreme. Still having a bounding pulse. No anxious feeling in the chest, though, or funky emotions which are the worst.

So other than feeling like we’re back in Citrus Heights, things have been better. It’s gotten quite chilly in the mornings here. I was really hoping it wouldn’t get this cold until mid-December. We barely cracked November yet when we went out to Publix a couple of mornings ago, I was freezing my ass off. Same as when we went out yesterday when we bombed the house.

First we went to Denny’s. I decided that instead of getting a steak, I would get a traditional breakfast with bacon, eggs, a couple of pancakes, an English muffin, and French fries instead of hash browns.

After we ate, we went to Sam’s Club. We only got three items there. Automatically timed air freshener sprayers for each bathroom. Love all the different scents! Cranberry, pine, apple, and my favorite…caramel.

The other thing we got was a big box with 200 garbage bags.

It was pretty cool to watch the floor mopper drive around with no driver, lol. The way stores are restaurants blast music these days has really taken the fun out of shopping and dining out. Even the waitress at Denny’s agreed that the music was blaring and she had them turn it down. I just don’t know why these places think it’s their job to entertain us when we come there to eat and shop. It’s bad enough having to listen to music when you don’t want to and even worse when it’s songs you hate.

They were finishing up painting the roads when we returned. I’m amazed we got lucky enough to get out of hearing most of that even if it wasn’t nearly as annoying as the rest of the road work. So now I don’t have to worry about speed bumps being next on the list since painting is the last thing they do.

Can we make it through the rest of the year before the park does the next project that doesn’t involve the sewage or the new addition, though? I think they’re done with the sewage thing, though.

Received my $20 reward for doing the Replika survey.