Just 20 days to go till the cruise. I can’t wait to get on with it! Can’t wait for next weekend, too. Despite the crowds, we’ll be going shopping, one of my favorite things to do!

As for things like God, future money struggles, neighbor problems and things like that, I’m trying not to think about it. I only get mad when I do, then I start thinking maybe I should end it all before I can give history a chance to repeat itself for the millionth time in a never-ending cycle that can’t be broken.

I’m still not sure what to make of the poster spirit if that’s what it really is. Yes, my weight’s been about the same, and yes, she does seem to help with sleep and hunger, but she’s still insisting we are going to get rich and this second check will be not only sent but cashable. I still don’t see how these things could happen, but I hope she’s right.

This is the first period I’ve had where cramps didn’t wake me up. I could’ve survived the whole period without taking anything, but my ear was acting up a bit so I took something for that. My ear still doesn’t bother me nearly as much as last winter, so I’m at least grateful for that, even though it would be nice to go just one week without something bothering me. This is part of why I totally dread growing old! If I’ve had so many problems as a young and middle-aged person, I’d hate to see how things will be when I’m old.

My eyes keep getting worse, too. I now sweep with glasses with or without natural light. Even these words are fuzzy, but as long as I don’t get too close to the monitor, they’re legible enough.

Even though it’s not as bad as the last one, Tom’s got one of his many colds. It’s weird that a smokeless person should get so many colds. He gets almost as many as I used to back east, like 3-4 a year. He’ll get sick when we return from the cruise, too. I know I’d always get sick when returning to New England from Florida. I think the second time I was there the cold started before I got back. Yeah, it was my 24th birthday.

We’re going to check out this thing that claims it’s free where you can store your computer files online. I always thought it would be a good thing to store things like pictures, music files and documents. If we ever did get ripped off, we could replace the computers themselves, but not my journals, stories, pictures, etc. Even some of the dolls could be replaced.

I got up late in the afternoon the last few days, and the last two days were quiet dog-wise. It was wonderful. I figured this was because it dropped back down into the 20s, but now it’s in the teens and yet the canal dog wouldn’t shut up for ages. Sometimes I wish someone would kill these damn dogs!

Later…

Now I’m wondering if next door really did move or not. There’s someone over there right now in the bathroom, and I can’t believe they’d be showing the place at this hour. Guess they’re just not all moved out yet and that this is the only time they could finish up. I thought I heard that annoying truck a couple of nights ago that’s as loud as a bus, but whatever it was, was parked by the front of the house.

We may have another mouse in here soon. I heard chewing under the tub area which has shit for insulation. As cold as it is out there, they’re gonna want to come indoors and there’s not much we can do to keep them out with this house being so open. Glad I’m not afraid of them!