Tom went for an eye exam after work today and is getting both progressive and reading glasses next week. The whole thing came to something like $160.

It’s so not fair! He’s older than me yet his eyes are better! He barely needs glasses at all. Because he’s nearsighted his eyes are improving with age. Mine are so bad I worry they won’t be correctable in another 10-20 years.

Woke up at the same weight today. That’s because yesterday I got so hungry and rundown that I had to eat. I still stayed under 1000 calories but I had twice as much as the day before. So today I gotta starve a little harder if I want to drop anymore. I’m not a stupid idiot, though, either. I’m not going to let myself get sick. If I start getting to where I’m having trouble functioning, I’ll eat. I plan to eat anyway, I just want to wait till the middle of my day, and it’s only going to be a few bites if I can help it. But you can bet I’ll be slamming on all the burgers, fries and truffles in my dreams!

I might have to eat every other day, though I’ve been going easy on the exercise. Been doing enough to keep in shape and keep my muscles toned, but not so much that I make myself even hungrier.

I’m wearing Honey Rain perfume now. It’s kind of interesting. I like it but I don’t think I’ll add it to my favorites list. The honey vanilla smells just like my honey vanilla coffee creamer, mmm…

I want to be a ghost when I die. Not some unhappy restless spirit, but a playful one that gets to pull all kinds of fun pranks. I always thought the idea of being able to “tap” someone on the shoulder while another person watched them freak out over it and wonder if they were losing their mind would be loads of fun, LOL.

So here’s to hoping to “hide” someone’s car keys or something in the afterlife while I continue to go hungry in this one!

Nane rocks. But Maliheh rocks harder. The more I learn the more I really like that girl. We have more in common. Nane’s sweet, smart and maybe a little better-looking, but all we have in common is our love for languages. As far as I know anyway.

For 20 years I saw Maliheh as just a great-looking bitch. Now I see her as a great-looking bitch with a real brain in her head. She even makes me laugh at times. It’s a nice fresh breath of air too, considering all the brainless idiots out there these days.

Maliheh’s still a bit rundown herself but is looking forward to her vacation in 10 days. She said she just wanted to check in so I didn’t think she was really sick.

She got her first computer only a few years ago and believes there’s got to be an afterlife because there’s energy in everything.

She went to KFC and has a propane headache. She got her tank filled and the place reeked so bad of it that she called them back out to make sure the place wasn’t going to blow up.

She gets a kick out of my Formspring answers but wishes her electronics weren’t on the fritz. She wonders if her musician friend that died is fucking with her as a prank. Enough to irritate her but not cause her any harm. Those are mean pranks if he is.

She was woken up by her security company to be told she owes money that she doesn’t owe and ended up cussing them out for it, too. Guess there’s been a crime wave in her area where they kick in the door and grab what they can, so she got an alarm installed. She doesn’t do guns but keeps a can of wasp spray by her bed, saying it sprays 27’, can do permanent damage, and if they had that on the 911 planes and in schools where there have been massacres there’d be a lower death rate.

That sounds like a damn good idea; using wasp spray as mace. I think we may have some. Didn’t we get a can up in the Klam? Anyway, it’s good if there are too many intruders or one that’s armed. I will look for it tomorrow and put it in a handy spot just in case.

Later…

Swapped messages with Nane and learned another German word too, while I was at it.

I’m down another pound and getting used to my diet, but I still get plenty hungry at times. I try not to eat until it gets really bad. Fortunately, it’s not taking as much to fill me up these days as my tummy’s shrunk. I’m going to allow myself to take a break tomorrow, but only for one day, since even just one day off means putting back on 2 of the 4 pounds I’ve lost.

Some were debating whether or not it was ok to get upset if it turns out we’re not what someone wants that we happen to like. It was an interesting discussion in a forum on another site. I say don’t “blame” someone for not wanting you. It’s ok to be bummed that they don’t (sort of how I feel about Maliheh), but while some people’s reasons for not desiring us may seem silly, unfair and even cruel, we can’t help what we like/dislike. So you can’t really fault someone for something they don’t have much control over, but that’s just my opinion.