Where did Marie go this time??? She was going by Shady Jamie and now she’s disappeared. Why she could never have just one account in her real name has always mystified me. Why all the accounts in bogus names? I wonder. Who is she running from? Or who does she think she’s running from? Oh well. I guess all we can do is wait and see if she contacts us from whatever the next bogus account may be.

For 3 days now I’ve been burning really bad down there and I don’t know if it’s because of the steroids I started using again or not. I’m so sick of this on-and-off torture and I just don’t know what to do! Stop treating it? Treat it more? And if so, with what?

What’s weird is that the burning is coming from closer to my pussy opening and not the very top by my clit where I usually burn and itch most. The question is, what might happen if I stop treating it? Would it get any worse? If I knew it wouldn’t get any worse than it is, I wouldn’t bother to put anything more on it other than maybe the diaper rash ointment.

I’m guessing it’s probably burning because of the steroids, even though I only used it 4 or 5 times, but I can’t say anything for sure anymore. The only thing I can say with certainty is that I’m tired of all the fucking health issues! The more I acquire, the more I want to give up on everything but my thyroid since I need medication for that, but now I’m not even sure that scheduling an appointment with Dr. O was a good idea. I’m just afraid that trying something new may have the same or worse effect as when I tried 88 mcg. Maybe it’s best to just make skips when I feel the anxiety kick in and hope that someday I’ll stop feeling that, will be able to take the meds every day, and will be able to have normal numbers. It’s almost like something up there doesn’t want me to have normal numbers. That wouldn’t make losing weight any easier, so why not?

I slept shittily and that was mostly my fault because I didn’t think I would sleep late enough to need the earbuds, so what I think might have been that fucking car woke me up. Again it took 2 days off but it came today. It was just leaving when I got up. It could have been the garbage and recycle trucks waking me up, but anyway, I woke up, thought I was going to get up and yanked the earbud out. But then I drifted back off and was woken up again. Whenever I crash tonight I’ve got to put them in and leave them in until I get up out of bed for good.

I could have sworn food smells woke me up too but Tom wasn’t cooking anything at the time so I don’t know what it was. I just know I’m tired of the constant sleep disturbances and feeling tired even when I sleep better. I’m always, always tired these days and it sucks. I seldom have the energy to work out or do much of anything physical. I’m tired and I’m burning. :(

Tom tried to make an appointment with Dr. A but was told that she and everyone else in the building weren’t accepting new patients. We were kind of surprised since there are always parking spots available at the place.

Yesterday and today we were too tired to install the fifth out of six mural panels but there is no hurry for that.

I may skip Nano today. I can always double up tomorrow.

I’m loving my new rainbow duster and I wish I’d thought to use it a long time ago because it really does make dusting go faster. In fact, I can easily do it every week instead of every other week. Still have to use the Swiffer wand to get in high places and to do the bathroom counters and floors because I don’t want to get hairs in the rainbow duster.

I feel bad for Aly now because Jase had an allergic reaction to his new medication and he’s in ICU. He’s got stomach and glucose issues even though he’s a vegan in good shape.