Ray left for Michigan on the 2nd. I don’t know if this means he’s decided not to bother expanding his driveway and graveling his yard, or if he’s going to wait until he returns in November.

I requested a refill for my med and Galileo ended up fucking up but for the better. First they sent in 14 pills with one refill and I asked why so little since that was less than a month, even though I don’t take 88s every day. So then they ordered 90 pills. We talked to the pharmacist yesterday and she gave us the 90 pills and is going to hold the smaller prescription in case of an emergency for two years.

Last night, I felt anxious and my mood was low. I definitely need to scale back my thyroid dose because I’m not gonna go through this shit again or try to “tough it out” and hope the side effects go away because I know they won’t. We can’t always get our bodies to do what we want them to do. Even though I’m not sure I believe in this sort of thing, I still can’t shake the distinct feeling that something up there doesn’t want me to lose weight and that’s why it ensures that I can’t handle the normal range. Fine. If it’s that important to it, I’ll keep the damn weight. The most important thing to me is keeping the damn anxiety and dark moods away.

My blood pressure may not be as high as I thought it was. It seemed to be in the 140s to about 160 quite often but it seems I may have been holding my arm and hand in the wrong positions. I got readings of 128/78 today.

Both of us are very tired today. Not sure why but in his case it could have been because he split his sleep and in my case it could have been the hydroxyzine I took last night when I felt anxious. The thing is, I slept a whopping 11 hours and 46 minutes and ended up taking a nap afterward as well. Why the hell my body felt it needed so much sleep is beyond me. I’m still pretty exhausted.

Currently, I'm more worried about this country falling to a right-wing dictatorship within the next decade than I am about a nuclear war. So much is being banned from books to women’s rights to drag shows to gender-affirming health care.

We’ve had men dressing as women on TV for decades now. There’s Mrs. Doubtfire and so much more. Why is it suddenly such a problem? Well, it isn’t, of course. It’s all about hate, power, and control, as always.

I don’t know enough about gender-affirming care, but shouldn’t these things be up to the parents? Opponents say it’s bad for kids to make such changes so young. But if that was the case, then we need to talk to the doctors that are doing these things because they’re not supposed to be doing anything that can harm their patients. Or maybe it really is too young and they could have regrets later on. They never should have operated on my ear as a kid. Again, I don’t know enough about the subject.

North Carolina cut their abortion time from 20 weeks to 12 weeks. Next comes 6 weeks, right? At least most abortions are done by the 12th week.

A part of me wishes I was a GYN in a state that doesn't allow abortion so I could continue caring for the patients I was trained and sworn to care for and not give in to extremists by doing nothing or running scared and abandoning my patients as some doctors are sadly doing.

When six strangers decide I can’t have my thyroid med because they just had to ban it to protect anorexics who want to abuse it, I hope there will be some other country we can go to to get it.

Oh, and I love how the Texas GOP says they’ll reward straight couples that have over 10 kids. So you can be rewarded for adding to the population problem but you can’t always get the care you need? Love this country!

I don’t know if I wrote about this, but I had a split-second dream where something bad happened to Jessie, though I’m not sure what. I told her about it, and as she said, she’s a worrywart. Then she ended up going through a dental nightmare when one of her teeth broke and the dentist screwed up fixing it. In the future, I may not warn her when I have a bad dream or feeling come over me because it only adds to her worries.

Most of the Gulf is under red flag warning. I totally feel like we’re back in Cali. Storm season was just about to get underway and then it just stopped. The real test of just how much the climate is changing in this area will be in July and August when the storms are like clockwork. I really think this is the new norm for here, though. I swear I’m a magnet for dry climates! We could pick the wettest part of the country, move there, and then it would go into drought. I miss the rain but I’m trying to look at the bright side and see the good in it. Less rain equals less mold. Less rain equals less chance of leaks. Might as well get used to it because I have a feeling it’s not going away anytime soon.