As I said, I’m back to sleeping shitty again, and again I appreciate all the input from those on Prosebox that are also going through or have gone through perimenopause. What worries me most is that now that the constant waking up is back, I fear the anxiety will return as well. There is no symptom worse than that! Heart palpitations can be scary, but I’ve learned that I can usually slow those down with some deep breathing and ET. It’s the constant feeling of anxiety that gnaws at your chest or stomach for hours and hours on end that really sucks big time.

And oh, the shitting! Three times already I’ve shit in less than 6 hours, the last being softer than it should be. Why can’t I do one solid shit a day??? I may have to check into all these stomach issues. They’re really getting old. I’d like to know what’s making me shit so often. I seem to do this no matter what I eat.

Warmer, drier weather means the return of the motorcycles on top of all the other insanely loud vehicles I have to listen to every single day. I woke up for no reason after 5 hours of sleep. It took me an hour to fall back to sleep (I had to take Tylenol p.m.) and I heard three loud vehicles zoom by in just that hour. I’m still not sure what surprises me more… the constant coming and going of vehicles, or how damn loud so many of them are.

I awoke to feel groggy as hell. The Tylenol made me so drowsy and my mouth so dry that I wonder if it has the same ingredients in it as Benadryl. I even napped for a couple of hours after getting up yet I still feel pretty out of it, even after food and two cups of coffee.

As I was having my first cup of coffee before Tom went to bed, he taped up the soundproofing material with super-strong double-sided tape. It just looks like a black yoga mat. I have my doubts that it will make that much of a difference but come 6 AM when they start roaring in and out of here, I’ll find out.

I’m surprised it took me this long, but I finally gained back all my weight. I knew I would sooner or later; I just didn’t think it would take this long. Again, what’s the point of working so hard to lose weight and risk my medication becoming a problem when it’s all going to come back sooner or later anyway?

We didn’t do much over the weekend other than hang a couple of pictures because Tom hurt his hip somehow. Although they’re beautiful, I totally regret going with posters. The frames I didn’t think I’d need ended up costing way more than the posters ($80 for four frames), and it’s been a lot of work getting them into the frames and hanging them. I should have stuck with stickers or gotten tapestries.

I am happy with the alligator print and the frame that we got for it. It’s a really cool frontloading frame where you just snap the sides into place. Unlike the others, it has an anti-glare cover.

I’m also happy with the one sticker that I did get; a hanging birdcage with a bird in it. It’s an all-black silhouette that I put on the wall space between the dining and laundry rooms. It’s the perfect size for that area, and the cage appears to hang from the thermostat.

The toilet in the master bath is back to flushing as soon as it senses motion. I don’t know why it was delaying flushing for a while there. These toilets sometimes do weird things for no apparent reason. The blue light was on for a while several months ago and we never knew why or why it turned off one day. That light should only flash when it’s being flushed.