Although I wasn’t back to where I was before the 6th, I felt better yesterday than the day before. Just a little anxious but nothing too crazy. A little warm as well. It still sucks that only a week into the year I’ve already had two bad days. Bad enough to mark them on my mood tracker.

Tom swears I’m losing weight because I’m having fewer calories. Where I was having about 1600 to 1800 calories a day and sometimes even going over 2000, I’ve been having 1300 to 1400 lately. He also thinks that feeling warm and flushing was due to the diflucan. That may have been a tiny part of it but I think the bulk of it was still on the levothyroxine. Until I have a whole day of feeling normal, I reduced my waiting time once again but this time to 15 minutes instead of 10. Tom still feels confident that dropping the vitamin D to once a week should help. I hope he’s right!

I asked him how much he thinks the medication versus menopause has been responsible for my anxiety over the years and he said 60% on the medication and 40% on menopause. Sometimes I think it’s more like 90% and 10%.

I still think I very likely had a yeast infection based on the discharge and the intense burning and itching I had. He looked today and the discharge has mostly cleared up. It’s normal to have a little bit, I guess, especially if you’re older. But something hit me earlier that’s worth investigating. I noticed that sometimes the burning tends to pick up when I’m on the glider hitting the road or right when I get off. Now, I don’t squeeze my legs together but the feet are kind of close-set on these things as opposed to when you’re walking naturally on the ground so there could be some friction.

I did a little research and found that this could be a real possibility since the happy button is pretty sensitive. I checked last year’s journal and read we got the glider in early January. Well, it was in early February that I started experiencing the burning. I’m not saying some of it isn’t due to menopause but I’ve noticed I’ve had two different kinds of burning. The burning that’s closer to the vag and then the burning that’s definitely in front. Still could be something going on with my pee making me burn there. After all, the WBCs weren’t in my pee for decoration. I don’t know if it’s a UTI or what. But if I want to find out if it’s connected to the glider I have to switch to the board. Tom suspects I might have had a mild yeast infection when we first got it and because I’ve been using it aggressively ever since, the irritation never got a chance to fully heal. So I’ll do just the board for a while and see how I feel. He doesn’t think it’s stones or anything more sinister like cancer.

I’m still on the fence about calling the GYN. I think I’ll wait and see how the board experiment goes and if the yeast infection flares up again and will give it till Thursday. I’m going to keep my sugar intake at a low like someone mentioned because yeast feeds off of it and well, I don’t want to feed the trolls.

So between Tom’s ass and my lady parts, it’s been a rough weekend. Poor guy’s got a hemorrhoid. Damn, I almost pity the person reading this entry! Either way, I really hope I don’t have to see the GYN. I hate appointments, especially these kinds, and my sleep disorder makes things harder when I’m not available half of the time during the daytime. Also, appointments tend to be like cockroaches and spawn other appointments, so if she wants to run tests or thinks I should see a urogynecologist, it could get to be a pain in the ass. If this doesn’t go away or gets bad again, then I have no choice but to see if someone can help me with it. I don’t mind a little burning here and there. It’s when it gets intense and consistent that I have a problem with.

So I jumped back on the board and while I’ll miss the speed and the ease of the glider, the board definitely has its benefits. I can stop easier when I want to check out the sights and I kind of miss hearing the whirring sound of the board and the tires crunching in between songs. I also get a little more cardio on the board.

Andy’s definitely not coming down next month. His mother told him that his SIL wants absolutely nothing to do with him. I have no idea why, and I didn’t ask. I figured that if he wanted to tell me about it, he could do so on his own. The airline gave him a year to use his ticket credit. So he’ll be down within the next year to see me. Due to his shitty memory, I just hope he remembers to consult with me first so we can coordinate our schedules.

No motorcycle racket yesterday but the small planes made up for it. Really annoying the way the buzzing almost vibrates through my head. Not as loud as motorcycles but definitely much more frequent. Today I may get my wish for it to rain during prime motorcycle time because the rain bars on the weather site are showing rain is expected at that time. All this rain is surprising. It’s like the seasons have swapped with each other. The dry season has become the wet season after the wet season was dry.

Reading The Couple’s Revenge by Daniel Hurst. I love his books.