Although I managed to get more sleep, it’s been another long and shitty day for me. I’m utterly exhausted and still quite worried. I got about 8 hours of sleep, but it was far from restful due to numerous disturbances. If it wasn’t trouble breathing, it was a nightmare about someone strangling another person, or me having to get up to pee, or the pain in my stomach. After getting up to take my meds, I went back to bed and dozed off for another hour or two. You’d think that with all that sleep, poor quality or not, I’d have more energy today—but nope. I can barely manage this entry.

Part of the fatigue might be from feeling hungover after taking hydroxyzine. Next time, I’m going to cut the pill in half. I’ve had to do things in spurts, then lie down again.

This might be the first challenge I don’t finish on time. I’m on the second to last ride. My rank is down to 90.

My biggest fear right now is my nose becoming completely blocked, since I can’t breathe through my mouth while sleeping—my tongue blocks my airway.

Tom tried to reassure me, saying that millions of people survived before CPAP machines existed and many still do in places where they’re unavailable. But with such a long wait to see an ENT, I worry it’ll worsen—it already has since I first noticed it.

Tom plans to call the pulmonologist on Monday to see if I can get started on a CPAP since I’ll have to sleep during the daytime. Meanwhile, my appointment with Rhonda on the 9th feels like a lifetime away.

I’m also still dealing with the cramp-like sensation in my lower left abdomen, and that seems to be getting worse too. I saw something called Doctronic in my Facebook feed, which offered an analysis similar to what ChatGPT provided but broke down the likelihoods by percentage. It suggested:

• Diverticulitis (50%)
• Irritable Bowel Syndrome (IBS) (20%)
• Ovarian Cyst (15%)
• Colorectal Cancer (15%)