Slept reasonably well, even though I didn't wake up feeling very refreshed. I still do have sleep apnea, after all.

Dear Tom was kind enough to clean our small fans yesterday. We have ceiling fans, but we also have portable fans to reach areas where the ceiling fans don't reach well, and they were filthy. I would have cleaned them a lot sooner had they been easy to open, but they aren’t. It was a lot of work for him just to open them. We probably should have just gotten new ones.

The rest of this entry may be kind of gross to some people, but I had a third discharge yesterday—at least I think I did. It was kind of clearish, so I thought it was just water at first since these bidets do leave me kind of wet, even when I try to dry myself as well as I can. However, research said that if it was water, it would disappear when it dried because water has no pigment.

Tom and I both agree it's not endometrial cancer, despite the fact that the uterus lining is a bit thicker in DES-exposed people, which can increase the risk of cancer.

I compared the colors of the discharges from endometrial cancer versus atrophy, and they are similar. The only difference is that atrophy can leave a yellowish discharge, and I swear the GYN I saw last time said something about that.

The only thing that doesn't make sense is what's causing the atrophy discharges all of a sudden, especially since I haven't been very active and definitely haven't gotten it on. I'm almost half a decade post-menopausal, so why now? Makes me glad it's incredibly unlikely I would ever be raped. I would bleed to death, no doubt.

I'll keep an eye on it, but if worse comes to worst and we're wrong, I'm not going to do anything about it because the exams and treatments are like sheer torture from what I read you’ll likely wish you were dead. Plus, there's a threat of recurrence. You can't worry about something recurring if you don't get rid of it in the first place. And if I've got my facts straight, you can live a long time with it because it's slow-growing.