I wish we weren't so damn broke now. Or better yet, let me rephrase that: I wish our money wasn't tied up in other things right now, like my health. Tomorrow, I get the tooth pulled. He’s doing more research because the sleep study might be our cheapest bet after all, even if it has the longest wait, but I've survived this long. He also has to call his insurance company to get more info on the cataract surgery he needs.

Anyway, I say I wish we had more money now because I'm really eager to get a haunted doll and an EMF reader to see what happens. My psychic abilities have been limited thus far to premonitions and mood influencing, even though I can't control what or how I'm able to do this. I wonder if there are other skills I could develop. I'm trying to keep an open mind about the possibility of the afterlife since it hasn't been disproven any more than it's been proven. I feel really inspired by Melanie, with whom I am fast becoming friends. I believe we have many things in common, and she’s easy to understand in her videos and has a very comforting voice. She’s inspiring, too. I feel she's quite a knowledgeable psychic and that I could learn from her little by little. I don't know that I could ever get as good as she is at communicating with haunted dolls, but even though it will be a while, I'm definitely going to get the tools necessary to give it a try!

My fatigue yesterday was so bad that it took me about six hours just to get going. I slept a little better last night, but I'm still tired because one night doesn’t pay off a sleep debt you rack up over several days. I also agree with Tom’s theory about there being more than one culprit. Sleep apnea may be the main problem, but I wonder if I could be lacking certain vitamins and minerals. After doing some research, I came up with Centrum Silver for older women as my best bet to try. The only problem is that it has 25% of vitamin D, which could really jack my TSH up higher than is comfortable for me, so I may have to skip my meds at times. It seems that vitamin D, B12, iron, and folic acid are most responsible for energy.

I haven't heard back from Rhonda yet about the estrogen cream because she doesn’t work on Fridays. Hopefully, she'll just give it to me and not make me go to a GYN first, adding another appointment and more cost to the list. Oh, to be in a country with actual coverage instead of one that offers a variety of discount plans! I started having more burning yesterday, so I hope I'm not on the verge of another infection. Tom thinks it’s just a psychological response to canceling the appointment with the piss doctor, LOL. Yeah, it could be.

Yesterday, I managed to clean our jewelry and smudge the place with sage. I also put a piece of amethyst and rose quartz under my pillow, as recommended for improved sleep. What I really need is a jade stone, so I’ll be ordering that soon along with clear quartz. The clear quartz will go in my robe pocket. It's the same oval shape with the thumb indentation that the amethyst one I lost had.