My heart has been racing for most of the day, so I'm lying down now. Not sure why it was racing the first time around, but after it backed off a little, it kicked off again, probably because of the wine I had. It sometimes does that after I drink. I don't know if my TSH is getting low or if I'm overdoing the Brazil nuts or vitamin D.

Anyway, I was watching a documentary on the fatal love triangle that happened in Georgia in 2022 involving Antonetta Stevens, Janine Gonzalez, and Ashley Bocanegra. The whole incident in itself is appalling. It's asinine, immature, and truly tragic in all aspects.

But what really blew my mind to the point that I had to watch so many videos of it over and over again to see if I was really seeing what I was seeing was the interrogation of Janine Gonzalez. The victim who died was 30, Antonetta, the main instigator, was in her twenties, and Janine was only 17. They lured the other girl to them, and Antonetta was the main attacker, while Janine filmed the attack on her phone. Why Janine was being interrogated without her parents is beyond me. She seemed to live with her brother and Antonetta, with no parents in the picture.

Nonetheless, her attitude, demeanor, stupidity, and utter delusions were beyond shocking and appalling to watch. I tried to imagine myself in the same situation at the same age, and instead of laughing my ass off and making a joke of it like it was some sporting event to be proud of, I would have been utterly terrified, remorseful or not. I would have been asking multiple times if I was going to go to jail and what was going to happen to me, and the last thing I would do is even think of uttering a swear. That was one sick, bold, brave, and foul-mouthed kid, that's for sure.

Antonetta appeared calm yet overwhelmed and perhaps a touch remorseful, but of course, it could be an act. Janine was the complete opposite. She talked non-stop, perfectly happy, and even excited and eager to describe the fight. She would go back and forth between playing down her involvement and then boasting about her proud accomplishments in what was her role in the tragic event.

There was a very slight flicker of surprise on Antonetta's face when the body cam of one of the police women showed her reaction when she informed them that Ashley later died from her injuries. But when I watched Janine closely, there wasn't a single flinch. There was absolutely zero change in her expression or body language that the cop may as well have been stating that the nearest bookstore was closing. I can't help but wonder what the hell happened in her short life to make her the way she was and probably will be for the rest of her life. I just can't see this person capable of learning, maturity, or growing in any way, much less taking responsibility for her actions and feeling any sense of remorse.

She did show a little bit of shock when, during the interrogation, she was informed that she was going to be charged with robbery for stealing Ashley's phone as well as murder, but that was only because she didn't consider herself a thief or a murderer, claiming they returned the phone and that she only pulled her hair a little. Really, it was truly disgusting to see! It's just so shocking and unique that it's one of those things that, even though you know it's horrible, you can't help but watch it. How could anyone end up being such a monster at any age, but especially so young? 

Ashley's family said they were lucky the police got them when they did. Both of them got 20 years, and hopefully they'll be waiting for them when they get out, or maybe even the victim's son. I don't understand how they can get out in the first place. How come Jodi Arias does a similar thing and gets life with no parole while they may not even do the entire 20 years? People that monstrous should never be let out of prison. Even if they were unlikely to kill again, they still don't deserve to ever taste freedom. I think they both should have been executed.