Again, I had a little trouble pulling air through my nose, even with the CPAP. When I took it off, I ended up snorting. It started to feel a little too much like old times, but as Tom said, I'm still healing. He reminded me that things take time to heal and reminded me that his trigger finger incident left his wrist sore for days. It definitely needed cleaning, so I gave it the full neti treatment in the shower. I just really hope the surgery wasn't a waste of time and money! I've had stuffy noses before Florida, and I didn't suffocate awake. Granted, I wasn't always a nose breather or had sleep apnea. I always worry that nothing will change in the end, and that I could also have CSA, which is causing me to go into shallow breathing mode. I feel like I'm being punished with my eyes for trying to help myself. I knew I would go into a whole new problem; I just didn't think it would be five seconds later.

One of my ENT’s assistants responded on the portal, saying to go ahead and finish the drops, but if the problem persists, see my PCP or go to an ophthalmologist, since this has nothing to do with the surgery itself. They're a little better, but I have a bad feeling that once the drops run out, it’ll get worse again. I swear it's like something wants to keep me going to doctors, but I'm not going to any more than I've already got planned. I don't understand, though, because Tom got the same thing, yet his are getting better on their own. I'm happy for him, but why am I so damn cursed??? Why am I destined to suffer one health problem after another till I die? I really have a bad feeling that death is the only way to end this spell. It's just that I would really prefer to live as long as he does. I don't want to have to check out of life because I can't stop the health issues, although this is much more annoying than debilitating.

LOL, I accidentally figured out how to block spammers on Penana before they get a chance to spam me. I was going to send a message to one telling them to fuck off and leave people alone on the site, but then I realized that from there I could block them without even messaging them, which I couldn't do anyway without being friends. So I went to the home page and looked at the comments on several stories and found all the spammers I could and then blocked them. I've gotten zero support from the people running the site, so I only keep older stuff visible. Meanwhile, one spammer I blocked "liked" one of my stories. But there was no comment following the traditional "like" because they no doubt found that they couldn't leave one. They can still read and "like" stuff, but that doesn't bother me at all. The only thing that gets to me is people who contact me only because they want something, along with habitual “likers.”

I wish apartments were cheaper than houses like they used to be, and that Tom and I liked or at least didn't mind hearing everyone around us. That way, none of the repairs would be on us when it came to appliances, plumbing, and electricity. Then, for the most part, it would just be dealing with my health and healthcare costs.