I feel nauseous now, although I don't know why. Perhaps it was the shrimp chips I had, or maybe the olive oil in the Mediterranean tuna salad I ate, although that one doesn't seem likely.

I found that I'm down a couple of pounds even though I haven't started my diet experiment yet. I don't know when I'm going to start that.

My sleep was fragmented, yet I started off with more energy than yesterday. I think clonazepam was giving me more of a hangover and leaving me with brain fog. Last time, however, I took 5 mg of melatonin, and then when I woke up in the middle of my sleep, I took another 5.

I also had another rat dream, but it wasn't a good one, and it was just a random rat. The rat was very small, and there was a huge plastic ball in the room. It rolled over it and injured it, so I don't know what the hell that was all about. Just some shitty random dream, I guess.

I'd love to think that the dream I had the night before was really a sign that Tink answered me from the other side, but the logical side of me knows it was likely because she was on my mind before bed. An afterlife still doesn't make much sense to me.

I managed to do some cleaning today, but it really wiped me out. I was surprised. You can tell I've definitely been through a lot physically to end up so tired after doing what most people consider so little. I try not to get my hopes up, but just maybe I'll get my strength back little by little and will be able to be more active without it knocking me on my ass.

It's amazing how much easier I'm able to breathe out of my nose, even with the scarring and swelling still present. I know I still have to go back on the CPAP at some point because I'm still going to have some degree of sleep apnea. It should just be very mild, almost borderline, instead of the lower end of moderate.

I really, really want to get one of those home testing kits, but I'm so afraid to spend money needlessly, knowing how often appliances break and body parts break. If anyone's learned the value of saving money, it's me. Tom says it's not as important to save at our ages, but I disagree. I've seen things come up since we've been here, and the older we get, the more likely we are to have health issues. Shit happens, no matter what.