Kim hasn’t gotten a job or rid of her car, but Miss Century 21’s coming around again. She picked her up yesterday at lunchtime. I just hope she doesn’t make a regular habit of coming around! I don’t like doors slamming just outside the bedroom window. I can sometimes hear them loud and clear even over the air cleaner.

My lotion came yesterday. No freebies this time.

As I’m sure most people would agree, I’m fat, old-looking, and just not very pretty. So why can’t I just forget about this sure-to-be straight chick? Oh, I don’t know. I guess it gives me something to do. It’s kind of fun. It’s like with Palma. I knew I wouldn’t get a damn thing from her, but I had fun flirting just the same. Can it really hurt anyone if it’s done in good taste? I wouldn’t do anything to put her on the spot or embarrass her in any way. At least not if I could help it. I just can’t see myself ever wanting to have sex with Tom. As I’ve learned, one can give their heart to the same person forever, but not their body. This doesn’t mean I’ll ever give my body to anyone else, though Tom’s saying that all he wants is me is no help as far as turning me on to him. If he wanted me, he’d have had me. I guess it’s just in most guys’ nature to say they want things they don’t. In other words, yes really means no in most cases.

He went to Safeway yesterday and there were very few employees he said, and she wasn’t one of them. If I’m not too tired, I’ll go with him today for stuff they didn’t have yesterday after he gets off work. He said there were no frozen potatoes or hardly anything else on the list I made up. The shelves were bare. I guess they had a problem stocking up or something. Somebody fucked up somewhere, but anyway, I may be too tired to go today. Next week for sure, though.