I was sitting here thinking about some of the things Andy mentioned in his messages to me. But I’m confused about a couple of things. He complained that I complained about the neighbor’s noise, saying that’s just typical daytime noise and I shouldn’t have taken it personally (he obviously didn’t know the extent of it) but isn’t that what he did when he complained about his neighbor cop’s dog? Dogs are a regular part of daytime noise too, particularly in the west where they’re not considered household pets. I don’t have a problem with his complaining about that or anything else. That’s his business and not my place to judge or say how he should handle situations like that. He can’t help what bothers him and he’s welcome to complain about whatever he wants. But the point is, didn’t he basically do the same thing? Maybe I’m just as in the dark about that situation as he was about my past situation. He’s just lucky that pig didn’t spite him into jail.

Something else also hit me. I don’t know why it took nearly 24 hours to – duh – but he said he sent a letter to our Tempe box which I never received. But I thought I hadn’t given him that address. I know he sent me something else by sending it to the Phoenix house knowing it would be forwarded to me, but I can’t remember for the life of me ever giving him the Tempe box address. I didn’t give anyone that address, for that matter. Absolutely no one at all. I knew we’d only have that box for just a few months and I didn’t want to confuse anyone I planned to keep in touch with, so I just waited till we got the Maricopa box.

I suppose I should be asking him this and not just my journal. But he reads this thing, so I’m doing both in the end.

I also wonder about the person(s) responsible for leaving me “warnings” about Andy’s true intentions on Formspring. If they really know one of us, why don’t they just say so?

Our rat’s tumor is now the size of a tennis ball, but he STILL shows no signs of slowing down as big as it is and as old as he is. I can’t believe it’s July and he’s still hanging on. Have we got the world’s first immortal rat, or what?