Been tired tonight. Gee, what a surprise, right? Still managed to get another painting started. It's going to be a flower field.

We're ordering these things to put on the bottoms of doors that keep drafts out that will hopefully keep the rat from slipping under them as easily. She can chew thin door sweeps, the little stinker. He still has to figure out a way to block the dishwasher too.

Just like in Maricopa and then Citrus Heights, my logic is at odds with my vibes. My logic says we're never going to be able to afford to move and that this is it. My vibes say otherwise and I can't help but wonder why being the naturally curious person that I am. Are we going to stay here until close to the end of our lives and go into assisted living? Or is there money ahead neither of us can see? If there is, then one of us is going to win it or sue someone.

The Mexico trip was just there but I'm loving This Turkey ride and all the twists and turns in the roads as I cruise along the coast of the Black Sea. That water looks so inviting that I just want to step off my board or skier and dip in. I should be out of Turkey and off to the Canary Islands soon, also with curvy roads. After that, I'll be ending the challenge on the coast of Oregon.

Not this time around because I want to hurry up and finish the challenge so I can finish my Spain to Norway trip, but in the future, I was thinking I might switch between the board and skier. I was thinking I would ski through the long trips I create that are thousands of miles and do the challenges on the board. There are pros and cons to both. Skiing is obviously faster and I can keep a consistent pace too. But the views are much better on the board. With the board, I can stop instantly to check out the sites around me. The board is better for going through cities where there’s more to see. Then again, it's nice to be able to stop easily out in the middle of nowhere too, or in the wilderness in the safety of home.

I used one of the three sample inserts you use every 3 days for dryness. The only thing I don't like is that I have to wear a liner which isn't good for you because they're not breathable. But what goes up eventually comes down just like with the Monistat inserts we wasted time and money on along with antibiotics and the Diflucan. At this point, I'm pretty sure I never had a yeast infection or a UTI. It's looking like my problem could be due to dryness down there and even though I've only used one insert, I'm not burning as much today. They're too expensive, though. I don't want to pay 60 bucks every month for a month's supply. It really sucks being a woman and it really is expensive to be one too.

Jessie said she used estrogen cream at one point but doesn't remember if it helped. My only concern is it making me horny. If testosterone cream can make Andy horny, couldn't estrogen cream make me horny? Well, I don't want to be horny with a husband who isn't horny. Even if we were both horny as hell, we're not exactly in good shape for playing around. I wouldn't have to do much but I think it would be very hard for him being morbidly obese and in his mid-60s. He could barely perform in his 30s, so how is he going to perform now? And this isn't meant to be a cutdown against my husband but just me being honest and telling it like it is. There's nothing wrong with us being who and how we are.

I also hesitate to mess with any kind of hormonal replacement therapy. That's what Levothyroxine is and look at all the trouble that's given me.

Now let me do some Kim bitching. I don't want to ghost her but I swear if I could go back in time and undo Kim M, I would, LOL. Her latest journal entry was basically her email exchanges with her boss. She totally overdoes everything. I can see where she would have driven June absolutely crazy because she had a thing for her. Well, she doesn't have a thing for me yet she's sending me way too much. I get about 15 messages with pictures, 2-3 containing journals, and 2-3 messages, and that's just too much. I reminded her again to keep it to no more than a few emails a week; one for her message to me, one for her stories and poems, and another for her journals. She always overwhelms and just never seems to get it. No matter how many times I tell her not to hit me with too much at once, it's only a matter of time before she's right back to the same old shit. What part of “too much is too much” does this dumb shit not get?

And why oh why do they let her have so much free time? She's only volunteering a few hours a week, has a couple of Taekwondo classes a week, and that's pretty much it. She spends almost all her free time at home on her phone. I get that she’s like a 5-year-old and is limited as her sister said but you wouldn't give a real 5-year-old this much free time, so why her? I still think she would be better off in a group home where things are a little more structured and she could be given more activities. As long as the place wasn't run like a prison and the residents weren't abused, I think she would really thrive there just like Aly once said. Even if she was only there in the daytime. Then she would only have evenings and weekends to slam people with tons of emails.