Damn! Ten hours of live birth from all over the world next Monday. TEN hours! Next thing you know there’ll be channels dedicated to just childbirth alone. There already practically is. Again, it’s not that I have anything against it, I’m just A, sick of it, and B, I don’t want to chance rekindling old desires that could never be fulfilled. I still doubt I’ll ever want a kid again, but even so, it’s best to avoid the subject as best I can just like a recovering alkie should avoid bars. What that means is that whenever possible, I don’t want to see it, don’t want to hear about it, don’t want to read about it.

Childbirth isn’t people’s only obsession. It seems they’re pretty hung up on watching all kinds of medical, true crime and reality shows these days.

It’s been cloudy lately. They say it could rain by the end of the week.

Another day of torturous suspense as I still haven’t heard from Mary. Mary, don’t do this to me, girl! You gotta tell me something. I wonder who she’s getting her information from. Could it be Chavez?

Anyway, my first guess as far as what Teddy Bear’s in trouble for is sexual, and my second guess is that it involves some form of violence or force. Drugs? Nah, that seems unlikely. I mean, I can’t picture her into that.

Later…

The good news is that Kelly emailed me. I enclosed her message. In my reply to her, I said that perhaps we could be pen pals, or should I say net pals. Also, remember to ask if she has any questions.

The truth is that although I’m not attracted to her, I’m curious. Curious to find out just the extent of her apparent fondness for me. Just like I asked myself with Palma and Teddy Bear (Pérez was the only one I was sure of right away), is she just being friendly? I mean, she seems like a friendly person overall. I can’t imagine her being rude or aggressive to anyone. But could there be some hidden meaning behind her friendliness towards me? I mean, how many dentists play email with their patients?

Anyway, Kelly’s not ugly, but she’s not attractive, even though she’d probably be considered a little above average for her age. She’s slim with blue eyes and blond hair, but you know I prefer dark, with one redheaded exception. Her nostrils are also slightly upturned like Maria’s were. That’s why I called her Monkey Face. Even though Kelly’s no tall, dark exotic beauty or redheaded butch full of acne, she really is a sweet lady. She thanked me for the “cute and clever” emails, said she was excited just to type a message, and to let her know if it worked.

Kelly obviously didn’t spell-check her message to me, so I’ll fix her mistakes. Here’s her mess:

The bad news is that one of the power supply boxes in one of the new computers is broken. Of course, we just had to get a broken one, didn’t we? Anyway, Tom’s gone to exchange it before work.

The cylinder people called saying they shipped the new cylinder today which would put it here next week which would also explain why I had no fence vibes for this month. Done with the cheek’s visits or not, I always did say I vibed that they wouldn’t be here and up till between April – June.

Later…

Just got mail from Tom saying he exchanged the box (hope it works) and that I have one letter (from Mary). I hope it has my update!

Since I know I’ll never get below 127 pounds, I’m not weighing myself regularly anymore. I’m still going to be thrifty with the groceries, though, so I at least don’t gain more weight and have extra spending money.

Guess I’ll go listen to the song I just downloaded and burned all by myself.