Tom didn’t go out today to save on gas so I won’t know if there’s any Mary mail till tomorrow. I hope Tom’s mom sent birthday money! I went and checked and found that she did mail it to me last year. I don’t know. I just get the feeling that she’s going to forget about giving me birthday money and us Christmas money this year. That’d be so, so cold of them if they did and even Tom agrees. I’d like to think they wouldn’t be that mean and selfish, but you never know. Due to the fact that they don’t like me and just gave us money, they may not want to give us anything other than the usual junk we can’t use or don’t want like t-shirts and pictures of my fat face.

It’s been a rather dry and warm winter so far this year. I even wear shorts at times during the day.

I wish somebody would give Tom a job! I had vibes about the library calling today, but they never did. Now I really can’t trust the job and stay vibes. I wish he’d get something, though, not just because we need the money, but because I’m sick of him always being here. Not that we’re fighting or anything. In fact, we’ve been getting along quite well and he hasn’t been snapping at me or getting impatient with me when I don’t comprehend something right away, but still, a person needs their privacy every now and then. I do get some when he’s asleep when I’m up, but it’s not the same thing.

Tom and I both agree that my not losing weight is more likely caused by me having too many calories and not enough exercise rather than by something being wrong. I’ve also come to agree that bread isn’t so bad after all as long as it’s within moderation because it helps me keep regular. I had thought that the reason I’d get stuck when trying to diet was because of the calorie cut, but now I think it was due to a lack of fiber in the diet. I still doubt I’ll ever get down to 125 or lower, but the 4 key elements in staying out of the 130s are definitely a well-balanced diet, exercising at least a half-hour a day, limiting my calories, and using suppressants to help me through the hungrier times. I really hope to hell the store-brand suppressants work just as well because without them it’d be so much harder. It’s like the difference between trying to quit smoking cold turkey versus using the gum to quit like I did.

Anyway, I made a total pig of myself the day before yesterday and awoke at 132 yesterday. Yesterday I cut it to around 1000 and awoke at 129 today. This is the first time in a long time that I lost more than 2 pounds in a day, and of course, I’m more regular now. I’m going to make it a point to have at least one sandwich or one potato a day to help keep it that way.

I decided not to bother getting any more incense from Walmart since it’s not all that great. I’ll wait till I can get the good stuff from Incense Galore again.