I was too exhausted to write yesterday thanks to all the rude assholes in this world and our lovely God above. I was pretty close to hurting someone over it, too! The night before last they wouldn’t shut up till 4 AM and after just 4 hours of sleep, a couple of cocks were out working on their car and decided to get a little attention while they were at it by playing with their alarm. Tom went down to the office and asked them to have the car moved, and they blew him off just like when we asked to change rooms. The second time the manager came out and by then I’d had it and went off on him. I was so furiously outraged because as far as I’m concerned management is just as bad as the guests for not having any kind of policy on these little attention-getters and their damn stereos and alarms.

I shouted, “We’ve been going through this shit now for nearly a week and I want our fucking money back!”

The manager, who’d just begun speaking to these other assholes then turned to me and shouted back, “Don’t talk to me like that!” He started towards the stairs at which Tom and I were at the top.

I then said, “Why don’t I just beat the shit out of you instead!”

The guy’s eyes widened and he came even closer to the base of the steps. That was dumb. I mean, I was beyond furious! If it hadn’t been for Tom convincing me I didn’t need to bother (since he never threatened or harmed us) the cock wouldn’t have made it all the way to the top of the stairs if he’d been dumb enough to try to, and I think he would’ve. That’s the funny thing about cocks. They think they can beat anything female, but I would bet just about anything that between the fact that I probably had 20 pounds on the guy and the fury boiling through me, I could’ve broken him in half in no time. That was incredibly bold and stupid of him to approach the base of the steps as it was with me being as furious as I was. Hell, I wouldn’t go near someone that pissed, and I hate to turn the other cheek and send the wrong message, but you know how males are. They never back down from a challenge or dare. But in the end, the guy didn’t have to go to the hospital and I didn’t have to go to jail, not that it would’ve been much wilder than this place. Every few minutes there’s something going on, be it doors slamming, feet stomping, people shouting, alarms, horns, stereos, you name it.

Anyway, the manager called the cops on the alarm players because they reacted the way people like that usually do when asked to quiet down – defiant and rebellious. As soon as the manager asked them to move, they started blaring the thing but made sure to split before the cops arrived. I was kind of surprised we weren’t kicked out too, but I think the manager realized hey, you don’t go messing with someone that enraged, and with damn good reason, and I think he realized it wouldn’t be wise to tangle with me. Rage is the main factor in fighting. Not your gender, not your height, not your weight, and believe me I was in what was beyond a psychotic rage at that point.

The best thing about this place is going to be getting out of it tomorrow morning! I finally got caught up on my sleep last night, so I’ll have to be exhausted tomorrow too since it seems I’m only allowed to sleep every other day. We still have to go to another motel, but at least the others have been only annoying. This one’s downright maddening! I’d stay on the streets or sleep under a bush before I stood in another Motel 6 ever again in my life! They don’t even have DO NOT DISTURB signs here. At least they don’t have paper-thin walls to go with the flimsy floors, and at least they have a pool. We went swimming twice, but mostly just for a quick dip to cool off. Today’s cooler and windy, but yesterday was 104º.

I love being in California and knowing I don’t have to deal with the cold and the snow, but there are too many people here and they really get on my nerves at times! There are not as many as Phoenix, but there are definitely more than K-Falls. Since I wouldn’t want to kill myself in any way that could be too excruciating or that I might botch, I sometimes think I should just stop eating. Then I’d just get weak and drift away. Away from all this chaos. We’re just not meant to live in peace no matter where we go! If my travel certificate to Italy was transferable or redeemable for cash, I’d sell it in a heartbeat! I do not want to travel and play motel again!

There’s been some fun mixed in with the craziness. We went clothes shopping for Tom so he’d have decent things to wear that were in style for interviews, although I don’t know if we’d call that part fun. This was yesterday after the shit with the alarmers/manager. We just wanted to get the hell out of this nuthouse for a while, once we saw that the manager wasn’t going to be dumb enough to piss me off even more.

We also went to Red Lobster like I’ve been dying to do for years now since there wasn’t any up in Oregon. This was both a good and a dumb idea. I love lobster but hated paying $25 for just 10 bites of it. At least I didn’t have to crack the shells which is a bitch. A lady did it for me who was teaching a new waiter how to do it. It was his first day, I guess.

We also browsed through Circuit City. They have some awesome headphones and some killer stereos, too. The stereos were a sad reminder of what was to be waiting for us in whatever apartment complex we get stuck in. After all, the last time we were in apartments they didn’t have such loud, basey stereos or TVs. I have my cheap headphones on now as I type. I can still feel the floor rumbling under me, but I can’t hear the non-vibrant shit going on around me till who knows how late into the night. Last night they shut up at 1 AM. Maybe they’ll quit at midnight tonight, but it’s quite a full house for a Sunday so I won’t count on it.

Today we went and grabbed a quick bite to eat, along with a few things we needed. I got new flip-flops which I haven’t had in quite a while. I’ve been wearing my brown strappy sandals. It’s nice to have something I can just slip into quickly. They have a pretty tropical design with palm trees and flowers.

I also got some shiny, diamond-studded hair clips to hold my bangs back which are now to my chin.

We also got that form printed out so we can fax it off tomorrow for that beauty basket I won.

At least other people were nice to us, though we did have to deal with your typical mom at Red Lobster who let her baby scream the whole time we were there.

I also won $10 in eBay credit. I got thinning shears to thin this old mop of mine out and get some of the weight off, along with some lavender incense.