Hey, straight folks out there, are you sure you’re straight? Are you sure? I ask this half kidding because people often like to ask us gays/bis when they learn we’re gay/bi if we’re sure we’re gay/bi. Just thought I’d give it right back to ya, LOL, and ask, are you sure? Are you really, really sure?

I’m not going to say who it is, but someone told me they were put out at first when they learned of my orientation, figuring I might very well be either a man-hater or a guy getting off on writing lesbian erotica. They said that it seemed to them that many lesbians turned to other women more because they hate men and not because they’re attracted to women. I assured him, though, that while that may be the case with some women, most of us don’t hate guys and we really do want to have sexual relations with those we’re actually attracted to.

And no, we don’t “choose” to be the way we are. No person or incident makes a person either gay or straight. We are who we are. Period. And if every woman who hated guys or had been burned by one in some way became a lesbian because of it, then a good 80% of the female population would be lesbian.

What do I personally think? Yeah, most of you guys are assholes. You really are. You’re stupid, you stink, you suck in bed (in the wrong kind of way) and you’re definitely not very sensitive either. You’re not even very good-looking. But I also know that there are some great guys out there who are quite handsome. They’re far and few between, but they are out there. After all, I’m married to one. Yes, yours truly has actually been attracted to a few guys in her lifetime. But for every one guy I’ve found attractive, I’ve been attracted to a dozen women.

I’ve exchanged some interesting messages with the English guy who’s really the Welsh guy. VERY interesting messages. Writing that the guy runs a mile a day is one thing, discussing personal things is another, so I’m not going to get into everything we talked about. Let’s just say we really dig each other. He hasn’t bothered with relationships since being burned by Carol, Carolyn and Caroline – that’s no joke – and values his solitude, not that he doesn’t get lonely at times, admit he’s attracted to me and would “court thee” if he could.

And I would be glad to meet him, too!

I will say that he explained to me a little more about Wales vs. England. I considered Wales to be a part of England, but that’s not quite the case. It’s nestled close by it, but not actually inside of it. I looked up Wales on Wiki to learn a little more about it.

He hasn’t been to the United States of Uninsured yet. Maybe someday when he gets rich, famous or both.

Oh, that reminds me. Before I forget – someone asked if we would ever write a book together. It may be a nice thought, but I doubt it would work. I’m not as good as he is and don’t have the time or the discipline to write as much and as often as he does. Our English also differs at times and so does our spelling. In both England and Wales, they like to sprinkle some of their words with extra U’s. So all those extra U’s and the fact that he does sci-fi and I do suspense, might really clash as far as doing a book together goes.

But you gave me a damn good idea, so thanks! I like to sometimes incorporate people I know – even if I don’t literally know them – into my stories. Maybe I could make us the lead characters in a story (not erotica) like I did with D and I and a few others I’ve known. I would base his character on what I’ve learned of him through our communications as well as what I’d picture him to be like if I knew and interacted with him personally. I will discuss it with him sometime and see how the idea goes over with him, even though I’m already working on two other stories I may never finish, plus all the millions of other things I do these days.

D’s decided she must not “rock my world” anymore since it’s been more than 5 minutes before I replied to her email, so she may as well go back to living in a shell, she says, so she doesn’t get hurt that way.

Argh! She really drives me nuts at times with her clingy insecurity. The idea of someone I like being into me and all that is flattering. But once again, there’s classy and then there’s trashy. If you’re gonna be hung up on me, go about it in a tasteful manner and not an obsessive one!

A part of me wants to tell her to grow a dick, bend it backward and shove it up her ass, but my going off on her would only turn her on more.

I just can’t make up my mind about what I want next for a pet. I was worried we’d have a hard time finding a small dog if that’s what we decide to get because everyone in the West seems to want large dogs they can leave outside. But then I heard that the shelters had a surge in chihuahuas with people complaining they were too small and couldn’t be left outdoors. I not only sometimes think it would be nice to have a pet that lived 15 years instead of 2, but that if I have to listen to excessive barking everywhere we go, we might as well make some of it our own for once. Jesse is out for an average of 12 hours a day 7 days a week and the barking is just terrible. I’m glad we escaped the car stereos nestled in these woods like we are, but we didn’t come here for hours and hours of barking either. Some things you can run from, but you just can’t hide. Yet I don’t know if I want a big or a small dog. They both would have their pros and cons. I wish I could have both in one! I’d blow it up to 60 pounds or so outdoors so it could play and run with me, then shrink it down to toy poodle size indoors. I’ve heard a lot of good things about golden retrievers, but two people and a golden in 500 square feet? I don’t think so! I want a 30-40-pound dog with a pointy nose and long bushy tail. And I want it now, but I also don’t. I would prefer an enclosed yard and a job for at least one of us before we get any dog. Rats only cost $7 and not nearly as much to maintain, but they demand the same amount of attention. You shouldn’t keep a rat in its cage all the time like you can with other rodents. They love their freedom and to get their exercise by running loose and exploring and they like to hang out with people. They will follow you around the house.