Thursday, November 17, 2011

I have lived in Massachusetts, Connecticut, Arizona, Oregon and California. The next state will probably be Florida if I don’t decide to just leave the country altogether. I wouldn’t mind a liberal, Spanish-speaking country, but my hubby is as bad with languages as I am with numbers, so the Australian desert would be more like it if we ever left. Not likely, though.

I have been all over the scale financially – poor, average and even somewhat wealthy. I have lived in many places – rural, suburbs, city, private schools, houses, duplexes, apartments, hotels and even a not-so-fun 36 hours of homelessness on the streets of Sacramento when we were unable to access our money to pay for a hotel room when we first moved to Cali. I think I still remember every detail of the Walmart parking lot we hung out in during those anxious hours, and let’s not forget those jails and funny farms either! The jail stint came after lodging a city complaint on an old neighbor who happened to have a friend who was a cop, unbeknownst to me at the time. The funny farms – that one’s easier to explain. Mom and Dad simply thought I was crazy. :) That’s ok, everybody thought everybody was crazy in the 80s.

I have a very open-minded, smart, patient and caring husband. He’s probably the only one that really “gets” me, LOL. We never argue despite having different interests and personalities. Disagreeing on whether it’s too hot or cold is considered a massive fight between us.

I am actually bisexual, but whether or not I have any lady friends that aren’t just friends on the side is for me to know and you to wonder. :)

I can be selfish and I tend to dislike people in general but am still very compassionate and understanding. I empathize with people when they’re going through a rough time (unless they’re known hypochondriacs) as opposed to letting it scare me off and I do my best to help those I care about even if all I can do is just be a sounding board for them.

Known for my “brutal honesty” I can sometimes come off as offensive. I don’t mean to. I’m just being myself and speaking my mind. :)

I feel both accomplished in life and not so accomplished. I’ve done a lot, but there is much more to do!

I have made many mistakes in life but don’t regret them for the most part because I’m only human and because sometimes we need to mess up in order to learn things.

I like people that are honest and true to their word. As the saying goes, if I’m not worth the truth, then you’re not worth me. :) What I don’t like are people who only want to know you when you’re up, when they think they can get something from you, and who can’t accept you as you are. It is important that people like me for who I am, not what they think they can get me to become.

As a liberal, I find most conservatives irritating. Not because of what they think, feel or believe, but because they tend to try to control, change and manipulate those who are different than them if they don’t try to oust you altogether. If you don’t like/want an abortion, don’t get one. If you don’t like/want to marry the same sex, then don’t!

As long as no one tries to cram their views down my throat I try to let others have their own way of thinking, though I do admit that those who insist there’s no scientific evidence that people are gay/bi by choice really make me want to slap them at times. I’m sorry, but there IS scientific evidence and I didn’t choose what appeals to me any more than I choose pink to be my favorite color and to dislike spicy foods. And no, I was not molested as a child either.

I did, however, experience other forms of abuse as a child and I even abandoned my entire family for about a decade. Right or wrong, we kind of needed a break from each other, and I’ll admit I kind of got off on the idea of them wondering about me for a while… Was I happy? What state was I living in? Was I still married? Ever have kids? Or perhaps I got run over by a semi and ended up as a ghost sitting on their rooftop one summer day, happily sucking on a Popsicle while I watched them water their yard thinking to myself, yoo-hoo, I’m right up here, you suckers!

I tried to kill myself in my teens even though some people found it easier to tell themselves I was just “out for attention” despite the fact that a 20-foot jump really can be quite risky. I do not recommend it. But hey, ignorance is bliss for some people. Much like a recovering alcoholic, it’s not something that ever really goes away, but that you learn to control. It is dormant during the good times, but when the shit hits the fan in life I’m usually just a thought away from suicide.

I was a prankster when I was younger and while I have kept well within the limits of the law for quite a while, I sometimes find I have to bite my tongue or sit on my hands when the little mischievous devil in me longs to come out and play. :) Especially with someone that just might have pissed me off.

I like the things most people like – sweets, good music, movies, and things that smell good. I’m not big on TV series, though, and don’t have much time for them anyway.

I’m as religious as a doorknob, I sometimes have dream premonitions, and I sure love to keep fit. :) I run 1-3 miles a day and usually watch what I eat. Some days I really have to push myself to keep at it, but passing by a mirror and seeing how much I resemble the people in my fitness videos has a way of pushing me onward. Maybe at 50, I’ll let it all go. :)

I have a smart, loving 2-pound rat. Rats are much smarter than cats and dogs (sorry, but it’s true) and IMO make better pets. :)

When I was very young I did housekeeping and babysitting, then I was an exotic dancer for about a year in my mid-20s. Yes, folks, that means I really did take my top off – oh my! Don’t worry, I had my pasties on. :) After I hung up my dancing shoes I sang in my brother-in-law’s band for another year. Unlike most singers who could always sing, I pretty much sucked till I had training in my early 20s. I became a pretty good singer, especially after quitting smoking, but I don’t enjoy that or tinkering with the guitar and keyboards like I used to.

I am a total language fanatic. So much so that I am currently learning one I swore I would never learn and that I even find ugly – German. I am fluent in ASL and Spanish and know a lot of Italian. I also studied a bit of French, Portuguese and Esperanto, but dropped those 3 as I’m already studying too many languages. :)

Along with a little artificial intelligence work, I am currently a writer and even though I’ve learned to expect the unexpected in life, I don’t expect to ever make much money from it. It’s too competitive a field that’s very black and white. You either make it big or just don’t make it at all. I love to write, though, so I don’t let the lack of pay stop me. :)

I have been stalked by the same people for years, but am only sure of one person’s identity. She’s harmless, though. Not a lesbian or anything; just your all-American sociopath:)

That concludes my little 1,850-word bio. :) Next, I will leave you with some random facts from my blogs…………

  1. I prefer milk chocolate to dark chocolate.

  2. I will drink orange juice, but I can’t stand anything else with orange, including the smell of oranges.

  3. I love rats, mice and snakes, but spiders creep me out.

  4. I refuse to eat anything salty, spicy or citrus.

  5. I have very curly hair which I hate.

  6. I don’t worry what people think, they don’t do it very often anyway.

  7. I am sometimes too forgiving and tend to care about people who don’t care about me, though I used to be just the opposite.

  8. I dwell in the past and worry about the future a little more than I should.

  9. I want to fly a plane. A BIG plane.

  10. I’m partially deaf but I can identify musical notes without reading music or seeing them played on an instrument.

  11. I hate temperatures below 80º.

  12. I don’t mind the rain, but I HATE snow.

  13. For a while, I was a bit racist about a decade ago after black people sought revenge on me through the law for complaining against them and saying a few things they didn't want to hear. These days, however, I have no discrimination. I hate everybody equally.

  14. I wonder why so many people don’t know when to use “there” or “their” or “they’re.” Or the difference between “to” and “too” or “your” and “you’re.”

  15. I love bright colors and find earth tones boring as hell.

  16. I’m sickened by the fact that some people get away with murdering their kids and our government gives billions of dollars to other countries while there are so many people right here in need.

  17. I get most of my story ideas from dreams.

  18. I think some of the cheaper and basic foods like apples should be free.

  19. I believe people should be given jobs based on their qualifications, not their gender, age, race, nationality or sexual orientation.

  20. I miss owning a pool and swimming!

  21. I love Foster Farm’s honey BBQ chicken wings. I could eat a whole bag every day.

  22. I love all kinds of music but am not big on metal, gospel, jazz or classical.

  23. I drink about 2 liters of water a day.

  24. I fear growing old and dying alone.

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