Had tons of dreams involving the tall, dark and lovely Barbara, but don’t remember a single one. They must not have been too bad. :) I usually wake up during bad dreams.

It was quite a feeling to be able to sit down and read her message in German and understand it (jumps for joy) because I worked long and hard to study the language. I just had to do it to the tune of that damn cock making a racket up the hill. It was hammering something, I guess. Why the fuck does it only rain on holidays and weekends? That’s when he’s usually quiet anyway. But sure enough, we’ll be in for a wet Thanksgiving while today will be beautiful AND THAT DAMN COCK UP THE HILL WON’T SHUT UP!

Anyway, it’s strange that just days after my “break up” with Nane and me ready to put the German aside, I meet Barb and the inspiration goes on. It’s almost like something up there wants me to learn the damn language for some reason, LOL.

I don’t find her attractive simply because she’s thin. Thin, tall and dark won’t necessarily make me think you’re attractive if you don’t have a pleasant face. But yes, she does happen to have, IMO, a hell of a body. :) But not just cuz it’s “thin.” It’s her shape I love. Where men usually go for the curvier chicks like myself with full hips/chest, women usually like women with boyish shapes. She’s definitely not the voluptuous or muscular type like me, though I do like muscle. Not to where it’s bulging like hell, but visible enough.

Hearing from her was a pleasant surprise. I thought I never would again because I thought she was either turned off by knowing I like her or by the fact that I can’t exactly report to class in Germany. I still don’t know much about her. Not her exact age, nothing. She could be perfectly straight for all I know.

It would still be fun to miraculously keep a schedule and to have all our expenses paid to go over there and take her class, good-looking or not. At the same time, think how much colder, older and leakier Deutschland is! Besides, even the uglier RL languages like French and Portuguese are still prettier. And easier. Guess that’s what stories are for, though, so maybe I’ll have some kind of exchange student in a future story who ends up dreaming of some fun extracurricular activities with her hot teacher. :)

I’m not going to write back right away. I’ll give it close to a week like she did with me so as not to bother her. Sometimes I’m best taken in in small doses anyway. :)

I heard from Marie yesterday which was nice. She wrote, “ty for that!” on a comment I left on a photo about a couple of her exes and so I messaged her and said I’d delete it if she found it too revealing, LOL. I also let her know I still think of her and hope she’s doing well with her new wife.

She replied saying she was doing well and yes, she’d like me to please delete the comment. She thanked me for it too, LOL.

I feel bad that she still feels bad about “being an asshole” in the past. It’s done and over with as far as I’m concerned. She said she won’t contact me unless I contact her and I think that as long as we keep the contact to a minimum we’ll be ok. I know she can’t help how she is and that she didn’t ask to be that way either. But it’s also true that I can’t deal with obsessiveness and paranoia. One can only assure another they’re NOT plotting against them so many times and that the reason they haven’t heard from them for a whole 5 minutes is NOT that you suddenly stopped caring. I care. I just have to have a life while I’m at it. Even hearing from those I’m attracted to, get along with and have things in common with every single day would be a bit much for me. Once or twice a week is enough, even every 2-3 weeks.

Andy and I have 3 games we play on Formspring, though every single time I log in I see something new. I’m sick of all the damn change there! Anyway, there’s the journal game, the background game, and now he quotes his favorite lines from my entries.

As for my story – the finish line is near! It will soon be time to tie loose ends up and make it all come together. :) I’ve got about 12,000 words to go and hope to beat the deadline! No matter how many books an author may write, the beginning of the end is always exciting! It gets a little tricky, though. In the beginning and the middle, you’re kind of rolling a ball and just letting it go wherever it’s gonna go. But now I have to start steering that ball and giving it some sense of direction to hopefully help guide it to an ending that is both sensible and memorable. :)

LOL, gotta admit the idea of doing a quick name change and sending it to Nane when it’s done is tempting and have “Anina” who’s renting “Ginny” become a case of Marion renting Nane, hahaha. Marion was/is actually Nane’s first name while Nane’s her middle name, but nah, I’ll leave the “ex” alone. Marion – Nane – whatever you want to call her – would only enjoy it and probably even get off on some of it (those steamy shower scenes). She’s “played” roles in stories before and it’s nothing new to her. It was just the thought of “Marion” tormenting “Nane” that was funny.

Ok, off to work on my story and hope that nothing else leaks around here today and that the roof doesn’t cave in and I don’t fall through the floor when walking from room to room. sighs Even if they hired him on right now we still gotta wait till he turns 55 and that’s not till late June. Or maybe he’ll just get laid off and we’ll be back in the poorhouse, forever trapped here. I hope not but I have often wondered if something’s not using us for Jesse’s sake. Those previous tenants he had that broke into his house and were noisy and were dopers – that’s normal. We’re not.

Later…

Jesse’s here now dealing with the latest leak. Yeah, I called him to let him know the water pressure was low (you know there’s always gotta be a problem here) and he said he was cleaning out the tanks. The guy was actually considerate of me, too. I couldn’t believe it when he said he thought about coming down to tell me about the tanks but wasn’t sure I was up yet.

When he came down to check for outside leaks and then asked if everything was ok in here I decided it was as good a time as any to mention the bathroom sink leaking, knowing we couldn’t avoid it forever and that it would only get worse anyway.

The problem appears to be what I thought it was. A loose t-pipe joint in the incoming water. He showed me it dripping while it was running. It’s a slow drip but a drip nonetheless. He said it might’ve been going on for some time and that it had to be dealt with. Yeah, I figured as much. Plus, I’m on an ideal schedule now. He put one of our pans under the sink to catch the drip so hopefully the bedroom wall will dry up soon.

Now he’s mumbling something about how clean I keep the place and about good tenants. Hmm… good tenants? Even with a 2-pound rat and a 6-foot mannequin in a shiny bikini? Well, I tried to sell the bitch!

LMAO, it’s all I can do to keep from saying (he’s just a room away), “Enjoy us, Jes, cuz if Tom gets hired on it’s back to thieves and druggies for you, buddy!”

I’m too busy to write about the news interview I saw with Barbara. Oh, there goes something about fixing it next week if not this week… and what about Auburn and Home Depot? Yeah, he just said, “We’re in Auburn.” Really? But I thought I was in Germany singing 99 Luftballons with Barbara!

sighs I’m never gonna make today’s writing goal. :( I asked Andy on Formspring if I should step on him and I had to clamp a hand over my mouth to keep from laughing at the thought of Jesse knowing that someone just asked online if they should step on him.

Did he just fart?

Later…

Jesse got all the parts and is gonna fix the damn pipe next week.

Did some Barbara digging and came up with some more pictures that are fairly decent as well as a candid news interview with her about another exchange program she heads with Germany and South Africa. I couldn’t understand every word but I got the general idea. I played the video a few times and each time I could understand more and more.

I didn’t realize she was so old! She’s got to be 55-60. Her face was close and clear unlike in the classroom videos. She’s more wrinkled than Nane, the poor girl, and she has a bit of a wide nose. Despite these imperfections, she is still quite lovely. I’m sure people drooled over her 20 years ago. She’s tall, she has nice eyes, nice hair, a great body and nice teeth too, though I don’t know if they’re real. If she did pick up that I like her, well of course she wouldn’t complain now that I see how old and wrinkled she looks, LOL. Her hubby probably hasn’t complimented her in years! She’s still a hottie in my book.