The troll made another visit today and it said that her recent time spent on my site was 30 seconds. But then she returned and it said 42 minutes! Remembering that I tweaked the HTML the previous day, I overwrote the code even though it was still visible. Maybe next time I play with the coding I’ll remember to reinstall the damn thing! Once I reblocked her she made 3 more attempts to get in over a period of a few hours, but since there’s no view time logged, I guess she didn’t succeed.

I sent Barbara a message yesterday just saying hi. She’s ignoring me, not to my surprise. I’m sure it’s for the best. I think she only responded in the first place to try to get me to her classroom in Germany, not that that wouldn’t be loads of fun.

One of the people I deleted was my cousin Sharyn. I figured she’d keep in touch if she really wanted to but she hasn’t, so why not ax her, too? Then I noticed she was subscribed to my public updates. Or at least appeared to be. I’m not sure what to make of the subscriber thing. I swear it said, “you have no subscribers” when I clicked on subscribers just a day or two ago before I deleted her. Yet others I’ve axed like Nane’s brothers and SIL also appear as still being subscribed to me. Hmm… I wonder if I still appear as subscribed to Nane’s updates. Her wall is basically public. I wonder if she even knows this.

Later…

The rat is so cute and so funny at times. He’s got this new thing where I let him out and he “leads” me to the kitchen and waits at the refrigerator till I open it and give him some cheese or something. Also, where most animals want you out of their living quarters, this one wants me in it. If I stand close to the cage and am wearing something like my robe or a dress as opposed to a tee and jeans, he grabs my sleeve or whatever he can get a hold of and starts slowly pulling me in. Yeah, he’d love it if I could move in with him, alright, and his cage is so big I could actually fit in it if I crouched into a tight ball.

I was surprised with a win notice earlier. It’s just a peel-off facial mask, but still cool.

Gotta get new undies soon. They seem to want to head south while on the treadmill right along with the ass they cover which I’m working on sending north.

I’m now down 4 pounds but am going to give my muscles a rest over the weekend and be sure not to stray too far from my diet. I alter it each week for variety and soon I’m going to have to cut more calories. The closer you get to your ideal weight the harder it is to lose it and my stupid body doesn’t think it’s that fat for a muscular woman of my height, frame and age.

Went back to doing old fashion crunches on the floor instead of the ball. With the ball, you spend more time balancing yourself than concentrating on the movements, but on the floor, you can really focus on working the muscles. I do 15 minutes a day at different speeds, so I end up doing hundreds of crunches. I also noticed that the ball exercises weren’t pulling my gut in as flat as it usually is. In fact, I was gutsier than I had been in a while. Proper ab exercises should pull the gut in flat so long as you’re not too overweight.

Jesse didn’t wake me up and Tom said he wasn’t playing his engine gunning games when he got in. That might’ve been due to the rain. When it’s not raining he usually plays with his toys in the mornings in the warmer weather and in the afternoons in the cooler weather. The fucking inconsiderate cock left us with his fucking dogs for the night, though, so I have to have the sound machines blaring IN THE COUNTRY to get any peace. He left early too, like around 4pm. Knowing they’re not going to stop till 3am - 4am, I’m putting off watching the latest Lifetime movie. Yeah, you fucking cock, we won’t be in your trashy little trailer forever, you’ll see!

Speaking of toys I see this country has a new one called a hypersonic weapon it was testing over the Pacific. So if we shot this at Iran they couldn’t even finish an episode of “Your Wife Showed Me Her Ankle?” Someone asked that and I thought it was a damn good question :)

“You can get anything you want. Anything. We have $1500 right now,” Tom told me when I asked if he thought it was ok if I got some of those pre-cooked goodies I like. I’m just not used to having money. Not in the last 4 years for the most part anyway. I still want to keep in the habit of not getting too carried away, though, in preparation for the next poor spell. Yeah, I’m not stupid. I know that nothing’s changed and that all good things come to an end. We may be on a roll right now but something up there still thought it was really fucking funny to tease the hell out of us with our survival and watch us struggle like crazy. It was pretty funny to see us led to the very edge of a steep cliff as we stood there horrified and feeling utterly helpless and doomed till a miracle stepped in and saved us. Just hilarious.

And now I’m being compensated with pain. I think I’d rather that than the poverty, though. I’m actually more used to pain than poverty. I can’t wait for the next tooth to hurry up and get infected so I can get the bastard pulled! What we have saved now won’t get them all ripped out and dentures put in, and I’m not stupid when it comes to that either. I know that quack was full of it in saying I had good teeth and that they’ve got to go. Every single one of them. But I don’t think it’s infected just yet. Not enough pain. When it starts waking me up – then it’s infected.

Back to the groceries; I just don’t crave anything anymore since being on this high-protein diet and adding a protein bar to my daily menu. I still have to deal with hunger, though, and sometimes it’s worse than others. My tummy’s shrinking so it’s not as bad lately. The important thing is to keep my meals around the same size so I don’t stretch my tummy. I have 3 meals and 4 snacks. I eat every two hours starting after I’ve been up for two hours until all 7 things are gone.

LOL, Andy’s on his imaginary tour again with his Fire Flies band and he tweets the locations they play in. The last time around I pretended to follow the shows with Nane, but now it’s with Barb.

The troll made 4 attempts to get into my blog today. I looked up everyone I could find with her name on Facebook with suspicious-looking accounts and blocked them. Her name may be fairly common (there’s even an actress with her name) but there were tons of photoless profiles that were virtually empty like they’d been created just to bypass blocks. Only she’s got to have one I don’t know about because she came to my blog from it after I blocked the one she prank-messaged me from a couple of weeks ago. Well, don’t you have to have an account there to look at people’s profiles?

I almost wish I hadn’t rejected her when she first contacted me on Formspring a year and a half ago. I don’t wish I’d been friendly, but my rejecting her is part of what’s got her stalking me. That’s the name of the game right there and exactly what this bitch gets off on. Negative blog talk about her doesn’t anger her and it doesn’t hurt her feelings either. It amuses her and even she said so herself. The more you reject and ridicule her, the more obsessed she becomes with you. It’s sad and it’s sick and I truly don’t get it but there really are some people out there who are “backward” when it comes to what they seek out in people. While most of us want good, honest, loving people who care about us, this one wants all the abuse she can get from people. Would she actually like it if a group of people beat the shit out of her? I’ve often wondered this, and sadly, I think she would.

I guess I’ll work on my story soon. Tonight I will reach the 30,000-word marker! Still don’t know if I’m going to be one of the NaNo winners, but we’ll see. It’s not as easy as one might think to win this damn thing, LOL. I’m good, but there’s always better.

So I’ll be busy writing and probably not have time for Piggeldy und Frederick along with Barb and her class of idiots. Yeah, I’ve been watching German cartoons as part of Yabla’s immersion course. Cartoons are a good learning tool because the words are usually not spoken too fast nor are they too complex, but sooner or later I’ll have to move beyond cartoons like with my other languages.

As for Barbara, the more I listen to her students the more I see that she really does have a class full of dumb shits if Miss Outspoken does say so herself. I found a video containing a part of the class I hadn’t seen yet and wouldn’t let myself look at the German or English transcriptions. Instead, I just listened. I could understand almost everything, and I hate to say it, but I could’ve come up with better answers than some of her students did. And faster, too.