The heater’s continuing to work well but when I got up the blower was squeaking really loud. My God, how many more years must we live in old, ancient places! We’re either dealing with things breaking in this historical heap of shit or we’re worried they’re going to. At least I am anyway. I worry about the roof leaking before Jesse repaints it next year with a sealer. Again, we may not have to pay to fix things, but if this roof leaks, for example, we may end up paying big time depending on what it damages. I also worry the blower will seize up again and start a fire while we’re asleep as unlikely as that is so long as we clean it every year. That doesn’t mean I want to own our own place again and deal with the expenses and risks that go with that. That dream is long over and dead. Right now I’m happy with just keeping things running as smoothly as possible.

I’ve figured out what to do about Nane. I thought I’d wait till the 16th when it will have been exactly two months since I’ve heard from her, then I’ll let her have it for dumping me without dumping me and tell her I’m cutting her from my friend list. Only I won’t really do that. Instead, she’ll be all confused as to what’s going on. I just want to toy with her for once. :) She’s been playing with me long enough.

Miss Superficial appeared to be logged in today, again making me wonder if she broke up with her BF. It doesn’t matter, though, because there’ll only be something else after this, and then something else. I’ve usually got one thing after another going on with me too, but that has never kept me from keeping in touch with those I’m supposed to care about. People tell me it’s not me as they tell me one believable excuse after another as to why they haven’t been in touch, but after a while, even the most believable excuses get old and simply don’t cut it. I still say that if you really want to keep in touch with someone bad enough, you’ll find a way so long as you aren’t literally strapped down to a bed or tied to a chair or chained to a wall. People probably really do have the problems they say they have but I also think they use them as an excuse not to bother with me. Well, acquaintances are one thing and friends are another. So if you’re supposed to be a friend and not just an acquaintance, don’t expect me to stick around forever while you disappear more and more frequently, always assuring me that it’s “not me.”

Just because Tom is now employed doesn’t mean I still don’t feel bad for those who aren’t. It’s appalling to see the government fork over millions to other countries while it refuses to care for its own! It’s just SICK!