Memoirs in Motion: Journaling My Life

Sunday, August 27, 2017

Went out walking real early before the final heatwave of the summer set in. Not long after we returned it rained for a few minutes but not nearly enough to saturate the ground. Such an odd time of year for any rain. Really hope that doesn’t mean we’re in for a wet winter with the roof that we’re hoping holds out until next summer.

I try not to think negatively but if the part he prints for the car doesn’t work out, he may have to get it from a Cadillac dealer. That, on top of the roof and the possibility of needing a new AC, doesn’t sit well with me at all. This could really drain the savings meant to get us out of here someday.

If bodies had a “Check Engine” light much like cars do that came on with various warnings, mine would have started flashing: LOW THYROID!

As I said before, I started skipping doses because it was fueling my perimenopause anxiety. But I think the problem more so is that I’m having bursts of activity in the gland that’s been causing a lot of intermittent anxiety. I’m really starting to wish I’d needed my thyroid removed because then there would be nothing to flare up. But as Dr. O and GYN said, it can roller coaster throughout life. So 75 mcg is ideal when there’s no extra activity going on, but it’s a little too much when there is. But the skipping is starting to really invite the hypo symptoms back. I’d still rather that than anxiety, but I’d also still like to find a happy medium that I’m starting to think I may never find as long as I do have the damn gland. Dr. O said I would not need it removed.

But yeah, that “Check Engine” light has really been flashing lately. My skin is so dry it almost feels like scorched cement. I was brushing my hair the other day and noticed it looks thinner in front and all the hairs in the hairbrush.