Just when I wasn’t sure about the nature of their relationship or whether Colleen spent the night at the Honker’s, I saw her there early in the morning. She doesn’t always have her cart parked in front, so I guess she doesn’t live too far down the street. She’s just not in the direction I thought she was. I’m curious, so if I ever have the energy again, I might walk down the street and see if I spot her bright green golf cart anywhere. We’ve never seen it at the house I thought she lived in. There was a white SUV there, but so many people have white SUVs.

The burning comes and goes but has been better overall. I’m still waiting for my test results. They’re checking to see if I have certain types of bacterial infections, but I suspect I don’t—otherwise, the burning wouldn’t come and go, would it? I just hope that when I get the estrogen cream I’m guessing I’ll end up with, its side effects aren’t worse than the burning, so I don’t have to once again choose the lesser evil.

Yesterday, while I was sitting down coloring, I had an intense, stabbing cramp in the left side of my chest. It was pretty damn strong but only pulsed through me a few times before fading into a dull ache that eventually disappeared altogether. Upon waking up, however, I could still feel a slight remnant of it. I don’t know what the hell that was about, but I’m not worried about it.