Another exhausting day that shouldn’t be and wouldn’t be if I weren’t dumb enough to trust sleeping with the ceiling fan on simply because it’s not storm season. But guess what? Sometimes we do get storms during storm season. It wasn’t thunder that woke me up, but according to Tom, we had some kick-ass winds that were causing the power to go in and out, and I awoke to the blaring light overhead when it came back on. It fucking scared the shit out of me and right out of a sound sleep. Part of it may be my fault, but I still can’t help but feel there’s a curse on my sleep I’m never going to get rid of, no matter what.

I brought the little portable fan out. That’s what I’ll use for sleeping. The overhead one will be for when I’m awake. Definitely won’t need it for a few days, though, because we’re finally having the winter it looked like we were going to get out of having. It’s getting down to 39 tonight and will be 58 tomorrow.

Storm season or not, I could kick myself for trusting the thing and sleeping with it, especially with as many power failures as we have here. Sometimes we even have them when it’s not storming.

Why, oh why do these fucking things almost always have to happen when I’m sleeping? And always before appointments.

The final week before the allergy testing is going to be pure hell, not so much because I won’t be able to take antihistamines, but because I won’t be able to take anything to help me fall back asleep when things wake me up. Then again, does it matter much if I’m going to be exhausted anyway? If I’m up more than a few minutes, I’m automatically screwed the next day.

So I’ve been forced to lie around a lot tonight and just sit at my computer so I can get even more out of shape. My life could be so much more fun, happier, active, and more productive if I only had energy as often as I should! I wouldn’t be thinner, but I could be in much better shape.

I saw it was going to rain while I slept, but I thought it would just be a light winter rain. I didn’t know there was going to be so much wind behind it. Tom heard some thunder, but I didn’t hear any over the sound machine, so it didn’t get that loud.