Once again, Jodi gets the man and not the woman. Yes, Teddy Bear stood me up, but I, a destined-to-be man’s woman, actually did end up getting it on with the hubby yesterday, something I have mixed emotions about. We couldn’t quite go all the way since it’s been a while and I’m rather tight. He also wasn’t fully hard. I don’t know, though, it’s like so boring and so predictable. I mean, what do we do from here on out – have sex every Sunday evening with neither one of us really into it? Is it really worth the irritation I now have down there?

At the same time, I’d have been pissed if he’d blown me off because then I’d feel like he was a liar.

At least I’m down a couple of pounds, partly thanks to exercising, but mostly thanks to lowering my calories and taking water pills.

Still on a schedule, too. Yesterday I slept in till 9:15 and thought I’d do the same today. But when I opened my eyes at what I thought would be between 10:00 - 11:00, it was only 8:20.

They’re still drilling away in front. Who knows when they’ll be done? The question then will be what happens next? Do more houses come in or does someone move into the one that’s there?

Looks like Tom’s going to be right. His guess is that the little door knockers won’t return. It’s still early, so we’ll see. Meanwhile, I’m armed with mace in my pocket and waiting to settle my curiosity as to what the hell they want.

Hunting season’s begun, but it’s typical so far. Last year they were shooting up a storm from sunup to sundown, but so far they’re packing it in come late morning. That’s how it usually is, too.

Tom did make it to Mom’s and back. They didn’t give us shit for money, either. Tom says that knowing how his family works, it’s a good thing. He says he doesn’t want them giving us little bits here and there which will dampen chances of getting a lot more later on.

Later on when? When we’re really struggling? Is that what mom’s waiting for? For us to hit rock bottom? Well, I think it was highly selfish and insensitive for her not to give us something. Tom’s right; it’s his family so he should know them better, but somehow I doubt we’ll see much from them. He said he “set the stage” by mentioning all the things that are costing us money like flat tires.

And it was greeted with not one offer to help out. Meanwhile, let’s see if they give a damn when we no longer have the money to fix all the things we have that can’t stop breaking. They did give us some soda and fruit drinks but that was only because they didn’t like them. Also, like Tom said, they couldn’t get the Yves stuff because of allergies, but I don’t buy it. There were things in there they could’ve gotten that everybody uses like shower gels, shampoos, nail polish and shit like that that can’t possibly set one’s allergies off.

I downloaded a desktop calendar last night that’s pretty cool and simple to use. You can even use it with your wallpaper, though not all of them look good with it. It’s cool, though, because it lets you put text on important dates, set your own colors and things like that.

Anyway, one of the sellers left positive feedback pertaining to me in the feedback forum which is where sellers and buyers build either good or bad reps. Both sellers say they shipped my dolls today. The CA one should come by Thursday or Friday, they said.

I decided that’s it, I’m definitely going to wait till we go to CA someday and pick out a mannequin in person. Meanwhile, I’m going to get the last diva at the end of this month, the Spring Bouquet Barbie at the end of next, then for once and for all I’m going to get the top 5 porcelains I want – Alexa, Haiku, Blanca, Becky and SW16 Bailey. Maybe I’ll get an occasional Ashton-Drake doll, too. It’s going to take a year or more to save for just the top 5, and like I said, we can never know who may fuck us out of our allowance altogether.

I spoke with Paula yesterday. I started with something like 140 minutes on my phone and ended up with 80 when we were done. It’s the same old shit with her. How many more slaps, how many more nasty names, how much more stress and how much more degradation is it going to take for the self-respect to kick in and for her to dump this Miguel? The little cock’s getting out of jail on Saturday, and Thursday, it’s time for Paula’s favorite pastime – playing court. At least she’s refusing to buckle from the bluffs and threats and plead guilty. She’s going to trial. I’m not exactly sure what’s going on, though. She’s mentioned a million probation violations, along with charges involving Miguel, so I don’t know for sure exactly what’s to take place this week. All I know is that Paula’s the reason Miguel’s in jail. At least someone in this world can get punishment for their perps! Meanwhile, I have to sit and hope I don’t get fucked over by anyone, not just cuz I wouldn’t like that, but because I know they’ll get away with it. They always do.

As for Yves, she’s another dead-end. She’s just too stupid. That’s okay, though, I just got a huge order from them and so it’s nothing that can’t wait. First she wants to send me the money and the form cuz she’s too stupid to write out a money order in the amount I wrote out for her, stick it in the damn envelope, stamp the fucking thing and mail it. Now she doesn’t know what form I’m talking about.

Later…

I talked with Paula some more. In between Miguel, she said she found the form and is going to mail that and the money out tomorrow. Whatever. I mean, I know it’s bullshit.

Anyway, she says tomorrow’s her trial for threatening Miguel, but since threats made to and from any color or race back there is just a misdemeanor, she probably won’t get much more than a few months added to her probation if even that. Out here, unless it’s someone like a pig, a lawyer, a governor, or a mayor getting threatened, it’s only a misdemeanor if a white threatens another white or if a non-white threatens another non-white or a white. If it’s a white threatening a non-white, it becomes an automatic felony. It’s wrong and it’s unfair, but that’s just the way it is.