Well, my weight’s up again, but what else is new? 4 pounds in less than a week without even trying.

Things aren’t so great now because he has what he thinks is a mild case of pneumonia. I don’t understand why my spells haven’t protected him against this. I’ve been blocking him from colds for the most part, so why not this? He said maybe my spells have been effective and that he’d be a lot worse off otherwise. Whatever the case may be, I just hope he doesn’t get so sick that he can’t work.

I have had a bit of tightness and congestion, but I don’t think it’s from any sort of illness. For one, my spells protect me. Secondly, I had a lifelong pneumonia shot. It’s probably just because of all the incense smoke and the mildew killer I sprayed, but either way, my lungs are never perfect.

I’m a little worried that Walmart is going to blow him off, but should it surprise me if they do? I mean, since when do Tom and Jodi get what they want? As I told Tom, if he can’t get a better-paying job and we can’t move in May, I think we’d be stupid to try to fight it. Fighting fate only makes things worse, so we’ll just keep on struggling along and deal with it. We’ve survived this long so we can keep on doing it if we have to and hope the queen dies a lot sooner than my vibes say.

I just hope this place stays as quiet as it has been for however long we’re here. Tom very faintly heard her vacuuming on Saturday which told us there wouldn’t be any animals the next day since you wouldn’t vacuum just to have the little animals come over and trash the place the next day. You know how destructive little kids are! I just hope that if we renew the lease here she doesn’t say, “Fuck it. If they’re not moving, I’m not keeping my grandkids from visiting anymore. They’ll just have to deal with the antics.”

Mary should get my letter in a couple of days, and the more I think about it, the more I think that no, I won’t hear from her. Especially since she preaches forgiveness to others. I don’t know why, but quite often, it’s those who preach forgiveness and things like anti-violence that tend to be pretty hypocritical. I also doubt I’ll hear from her because she’s too sensitive. She’s simply way too sensitive. The things I said in my letter (which was just expressing my opinions and not aimed at hurting her) had to hurt really bad. So bad I may as well have been there kicking the shit out of her.

I got a Bob letter today. He says he’s been sore since they took his bandages off after doing biopsies, and that’s pretty much it.

Paula won’t hear from me till I hear from her.

We’re going to have to pay the rent in chunks this month since the last electric bill killed us. Of course, that’s no problem with the office because they make $50 extra that way. Once again, I have to ask myself – is something up there using us so that these people can make extra money at our expense?