I know this is just a dream, but without dreams, what do I have to look forward to other than a life of struggles and loss? Well, since a silicone doll is out of the question, custom porcelain dolls and Ashton-Drake dolls are too expensive, and PG dolls, along with Barbies aren’t quite as nice, I’ve decided to focus on expanding my Tonner doll collection. They’re overpriced too, and some of their dressed dolls can be as high as $300. However, most of the ones I like are in the $50 - $170 range.

What I like about Tonners as opposed to porcelains is that they’re vinyl so they can’t break easily, they have no soft-bodied parts, they have rooted hair, nicer outfits, and I’ve never had a problem getting them. I also like how they all have the same body molds so I can put their clothes on any of them, be it Tyler, Mei Li, Esme, or any of their friends I’d like to get like Sydney, Carrie, Kit, Angelina, etc. I think it would be cool to have different versions of the same doll, too. I have a brunette Tyler and there’s a redheaded and blond version of her I’d like as well. I just wish they weren’t so expensive! I think it’s because they’re limited editions which is silly. Wouldn’t it make more sense to make more of them and lower the prices so that more people could afford them?

I sent pictures of a few dolls to a site I’ve gotten dolls from before that say to let them know if you want to sell them any dolls, but they haven’t responded yet. I was hoping that if I couldn’t get cash for them, they’d at least let me use them to trade with, but I know I couldn’t get that lucky.

Tom and I were laughing about how Bev was going on about ex-cons in Redding and Yreka, never knowing she’s living right smack next to one herself!

As we both agreed, though, her logic makes no sense. If ex-cons flocked to borders, then they’d be at the borders of all states, and since K-Falls is a border town, there’d be tons of them here, too.

I definitely don’t regret leaving Arizona, despite the few things I miss about it, but I still don’t know if “Klamming it” was such a bright idea. That’s ok, we’ll be in California someday. We’ll have to be cuz he can’t get much more than what he’s making here. A part of me wishes we didn’t mind crowds cuz it’s the big cities that have it all. If we didn’t mind, I know I’d want to go to San Diego. Wherever we do end up going, I just want to get settled in someplace we both like for at least 10 years! Wouldn’t that be nice?

I went to call Paula like I do each month, but I got a recording saying her number’s been changed to a non-published one. No doubt it’s because of the lovely men she associates with.