I’ve always felt that there’s a difference between bad luck and curses just like there’s a difference between good luck and blessings. I’ve always wondered…if you happen to keep getting particularly unlucky in a certain area for so long, could it mean something up there could be cursing us with it? Same with if we happen to get lucky in a good way more often than normal. Does that mean we’re blessed with that particular thing? I don’t know, but I sure as hell have wondered if my sleep is cursed. I’ve had problems with it all my life. So much so that it definitely seems to go beyond simple “bad luck.”

Yeah, I’m having another exhausting day. I fell asleep in the late morning only to be woken up by my damn phone ringing which I later found to be a voice message from Dixie asking questions about Walmart’s grocery delivery service.

My first thought was that it was my own damn fault for not leaving the phone on the bathroom counter before bed. I always turn on the Do Not Disturb because I throw the phone behind me on my headboard shelf. But the ringing woke me up over the sound machines easily because it was right by my head.

So I grabbed the phone and turned the volume all the way down and then after what took me forever, I fell back asleep. Then a couple of hours later she woke me up again! By then I wanted to strangle her, even if she couldn’t have known and it wasn’t her fault, and then smash the phone against the wall.

It turns out that when Samsung did a huge update, it messed up those settings. I’m surprised Skype didn’t wake me up too, which makes a loud whistle of sorts whenever a message is left. Maybe the update only caused the ringing of calls not to be disabled. Nonetheless, this is why I usually fight updates; because they always break something. So I enabled all notifications once again and the phone will no longer be allowed in the bedroom. You would think these things would be a lot simpler by now!

It used to be that whenever my sleep would be disturbed or shorted, I’d perk up 3-6 hours later. Not anymore. The only thing that’s going to fix this and refresh my energy is sleeping without interruptions until my body is ready to wake up on its own. That’s the problem with circadian rhythm disorder, too. We rarely fall asleep earlier even if we’re tired. Instead were usually up a little longer each day and we make up for lost sleep by sleeping later the next day. I can’t even nap most of the time no matter how tired I am. It’s almost like something wants me to spend so much time tired. So if that isn’t stepping beyond shit luck to downright cursed, I don’t know what it is. I have to edit this in spurts that’s how utterly exhausted I am. It’s like it’s become so debilitating that you would think I was sick and not just tired.

Then something hit me. If I’m going to have to spend so much time exhausted anyway, why not do it in the daytime when it’s more convenient to do whatever, including going to appointments? So I decided that once my schedule gets back on days, it’s into bed by 9 or 10 to read for an hour or two and then I stay there until 7. At 7, I must get up no matter how tired I am and remind myself that I likely would have been tired anyway. My sleep isn’t always disturbed by other people, though. Sometimes I just sleep shitty. I keep waking up for no reason, I’ll have a nightmare, etc. There’s always something. So even though the days aren’t as peaceful and I won’t get much alone time, if I’m going to have to be tired anyway, why not at least do it during the daytime? I know the sleep experts recommend against CRD people doing this since it can lead to heart problems and other health issues, and also say that you can’t train your body to need less sleep, but it won’t kill me to give it a try. We’ll see how much more sleep-deprived I end up. If I’m short on sleep 5 days a week instead of 2 or 3, then maybe it’s not such a good idea. I’m going to wait until after my dentist appointment. It’s going to take me until then to flip my schedule anyway.

Since Florida is likely to be the state we move to, I did some research and found they have an average of 90 thunderstorms a year, typically in the afternoons. So if I were asleep during half the storms, that means 40-50 times a year they’d wake me up. I could lower the number if I forced myself to be up during the daytime when the storms were more likely.

Traffic used to wake me up here about 3 times a week but by tweaking the sound machines, I was able to bring it down to about once a week, along with the virus, of course.

Another thing that pisses me off is that most people could be woken up by their phone and fall back asleep at least relatively quickly and not be so damn exhausted the next day. I don’t know why lack of sleep is so hard on me, but it is. It seems to get worse the older I get. The only thing it doesn’t do is trigger lung tightness and asthma attacks at times like it would when I was a smoker. Makes me hungry, though. Like the days before periods used to be where I could eat all day just to stay hungry.

I think some of those “gunshots” I’ve been hearing are actually firecrackers. Of course we have to start with the fireworks weeks in advance of the fourth just like we had to act like Father’s Day was just days away a whole month or more before it actually arrived. Rolls eyes

They’re opening the pool on the 20th but limiting how many people can be in it at once, and of course social distancing is still mandatory. I don’t know if I want to go to the pool in that case. If I’ve got to pay attention to how many people are in the pool with me and how close we get, that may take the fun out of it.

I noticed Bob and Virginia’s garage light on earlier and Tom said he saw a different vehicle there. One of these days soon enough I’ll get over there and find out what’s going on. I just hope to hell they don’t move before we do!

Got mild soreness in my groin today. Tom thinks my lymph nodes are swollen simply due to stress, but I don’t think so. Why would they wait until 2017 to start reacting to stress? That’s about when I first noticed the one in my neck.

Besides investigating Florida’s climate in more detail, I learned that 1 in 29 people in Citrus Heights has a chance of becoming a victim of a violent or property crime. Therefore, this city is deemed not very safe. This didn’t surprise me at all. What did surprise me is that 1 in 30 has a chance in Stuart. I thought it’d be more like one in hundreds if not thousands.

Venice, however, has a much lower chance and is the 12th safest city in Florida.

Little Miss Curious here found that Alyssa’s husband is a personal trainer who owns his own gym. Damn! Together they must bring home at least a quarter mil but probably closer to half a mil a year. Of course, I couldn’t resist dropping a comment on his Facebook page. There’s nothing there other than his profile pic, and I’m surprised he allows anybody to comment. Slipped him a quick message as well. It’s gone ignored, not surprisingly, assuming it’s even been noticed.