Been too tired to write for days. Despite being exhausted yesterday, I managed to get to my ENT and we even stopped to eat afterward at Applebee’s. The doctor was an hour late but very nice. It’s even nicer to have my ear cleaned because it was really aggravating my TMJ.

Applebee’s was good, but not great. There was the usual loud music, but at least they were kind enough to turn it down a little. I had fried fish filets with a side of fries and broccoli. I was afraid to finish it, though, because I didn’t want the grease to make me sick. So I had to remind myself that I still don’t have a gallbladder.

We got out of there just in time because a group of five, including a young kid with a loud mouth, was seated next to us as we were finishing up. I don’t understand why they put everybody right smack next to each other, especially since the restaurant was mostly empty. I could feel their movements since their booth and mine were connected, and the kid was annoying.

About a week ago, I made the jump to all 88s but I’m still so hypo that I wonder if even the maximum dose could get my TSH under control.

The B-12 seemed to mess up my stomach so I dropped that to every other day. I don’t think I’m gonna get any more when it runs out because it doesn’t do anything for my energy levels any more than the Rhodiola rosea does. I’m going to hang on to that Rhodiola rosea, though, for the next time I get anxious. Maybe it will at least help with that, along with the hydroxyzine.

There weren’t enough diamonds in the diamond painting I’m finishing up, so we contacted the seller, but I don’t expect to get the missing diamonds. We’ll likely have to purchase extras.

We got the rat one of those waterfall bowls that dogs and cats like, and she absolutely loves it! It’s so cute watching her play with it. Definitely got to get some pics.

It may be just talk, but Musk is talking about charging everybody to use Twitter to combat bots. If he does, I’m gone! And if Facebook chooses to follow in his footsteps, I’m gone from there too. I’m not paying to use any kind of social media.

I created a new profile on Facebook (not in my name of course, since Facebook just has to suggest every account I create to my friends and not give me any privacy) and will use that account like I use Twitter. It might be even better because I have a much higher character limitation on Facebook. I just wish we had more voice-posting options available in more places. I mean, what the hell is taking so long?

Finished watching a limited series on Netflix set in Germany called Dear Child. Not bad.

Then I saw The Nurse, set in Denmark about a killer nurse. It was based on a true story. In the end, all of their coworkers turned against the nurse who flushed the killer nurse out.

Only in this world do people shun people for flushing out killers, but not the woman who race-carded people into jail for something they wrote simply because she is black. No, that woman, no matter how much she instigated and did things that were definitely illegal like tossing explicit letters in mailboxes, was to be pitied and sided with at all costs.

I’m now watching Lies and Deceit set in Spain.

I was also watching a documentary about a rape victim accused of falsely filing her claim of rape and how filing a false police report is a misdemeanor. Again, only in this world could there be places where that’s a misdemeanor while what you write on paper can be considered a felony.

Came across an old excerpt in my journal from an email my mother sent me back in the 90s regarding Termite Tammy. She said she understood my frustrations with her due to how much she lies and is a sympathy junkie. Even though it’s wrong for a parent to pit one kid against another, just the fact that her own mother could say that pretty much tells you something about that termite right there.

The more I think about it, the more I’m surprised the termite never got in trouble for Munchausen by proxy. You would think that if anyone was likely to harm their own kids just to get attention through them, it would be her. Hell, she’s given her daughter bloody lips and I actually saw with my own two eyes her knock Lisa off her feet as a toddler because she slapped her so hard.

Yet, despite the years of Lisa bitching to me about how horrible her mother and stepfather were, she chose them over the aunt who once cared. But they can all have each other as I decided 4 years ago because they’re all great for each other being carbon copies of each other.

Met with Helen on the 18th but all we talked about was what was going on at the moment. On the 4th it’ll be back on with the EMDR and wondering if she’s helping me in the end, or if I’ve been throwing money away.

In another weird and detailed dream, I was sitting at a desk in the kitchen with a window in front of it. The place looked nothing like this place and neither did the outside of it. Directly across from me, I could see a woman in her window. She was close enough to see my lips moving when I spoke my thoughts out loud. I then saw her lips move. Every time I spoke, she spoke. It was as if she could literally hear me as well as see me. I smiled, and then she smiled.

Then she headed over to our place to introduce herself. I laughed and said, “This is the strangest way I’ve ever met a neighbor before.”

I noticed she had long neon orange nails and complemented them. She then stepped into our place, and I told her we just moved in so it was a bit messy. Suddenly, she reacted as if a horrible smell hit her and she was about to get sick. Then she went into the bathroom.

As I waited for her to come out of the bathroom, something hit me… How the hell could the woman have seen me through the reflective tinting in the window?