Starting to feel a bit off emotionally. I’m just not sure if I feel more down or anxious. I guess I’m mostly in a blah mood. The question is how much of it is physiological and how much of it is the fact that I feel like my life is pretty much over. I just can’t bring back that old excitement of moving on to new things, or at least hoping to anyway.

I really miss some aspects of my old life. I really do. Never thought I would say this but I miss some of those old feelings. And damn do I miss Aly!

While I’m not feeling the greatest emotionally, Tom’s not feeling the greatest physically. He got his squamous spot removed and says it’s given him a headache and almost feels like it’s squeezing his eye shut. He went to bed early. He has to ice it on and off and he was given an opioid for the pain as well as antibiotics. He didn’t want to take the painkiller before bed in case it slowed his heart too much in his sleep.

I never got my lab results today. I didn’t realize it could take a week to do A1C and RA testing. Wish they could have at least given me the results they do have. My shitty TSH is definitely done now.