I had a dream that I was staying with Tammy. She had a small one-bedroom house. I slept on a narrow cot or couch just off the kitchen. The living room was behind the wall, toward where my feet were, and off of that was the bedroom and bathroom. Everything was fine at first because I was on days. But after a few days of staying there, my schedule began to shift, and I was worried because I knew I would be there for a couple more weeks. She thought I was simply having a hard time sleeping, so when she got up before the sun came up and put the TV on softly, she demonstrated something her doctor taught her to help her fall asleep, where she basically sat with her eyes closed, breathing rhythmically, and then swiftly plopping onto her side. I laughed and said I hadn’t seen that one before, but had been taught other techniques.

Then I explained to her that I had two problems, one being that I’m a really light sleeper. “You have the volume of this TV really low, yet it’s still enough to wake me up. Even if you just gently sniffed, it would wake me up.” Then, even though I knew she either didn’t believe it or didn’t get it, I tried to explain how real and shitty N24 was, and how I would be up later and later each day, sleeping later and later. If she ever got it, or at least accepted it, I don’t know, because the dream ended at that point. I’m just so glad to be with someone who gets it! No one’s ever totally gotten me like Tom does. He at least accepts what he doesn’t get, LOL.

My virtual meeting with Rhonda yesterday was short and sweet. To my relief, she didn’t talk about increasing my dose, but we did discuss ways to drop my TSH a couple of points. I’m going to increase my vitamin D intake and add a Brazil nut each day, which is chock-full of selenium. 

I told her I’ve had more energy lately, and she asked why. I said I wasn’t sure, but perhaps the CPAP and the CoQ10 were helping after all. I had tons of energy yesterday, and I even completed a full aerobics workout in VZ and did a little on the vibe platform. My thighs are sore today from doing squats I haven’t done in so long. No cleaning or exercising for me today, though. The glider is fine because that hardly counts.

Today, however, even though I slept better with no chipmunks and no hissing, I don’t feel as energetic. It’s most likely PM. Yeah, who the hell was I to even dare to dream and kid myself into thinking maybe I don’t have CF after all? Even so, we’ll see if the CoQ10 works its magic when I take it in a little while. 

I will be seeing Rhonda in January, assuming she’s still part of whatever plan I have at the time, and getting blood work done then as well. She’s gonna test my vitamin D, too.

After the meeting, I was pissed that I didn’t think to ask if they had liquid nitrogen there for my suspected AK spot, but this morning I noticed it’s flatter, so maybe it isn’t an AK.

I use paper journals for writing when I’m on the road, going to and from appointments that are more than 10 or 15 minutes away. Well, I’ve got one that is just about full, and I was going to “accidentally” lose it in a public place just for kicks. I like the thought of someone stumbling upon it and curiously poring through it, but then I decided I might try to sell it on Etsy or eBay at some point. Most of the journals they’re selling there are old, but they do have some more recent ones. If it doesn’t sell, then I can leave it wherever.

My next paper journal is the rainbow one I got from Temu, with different colored paper. It has white, pink, orange, yellow, green, blue, and purple.