Got a 10-page draft from Mary. God, the shit she’s taken from Derek alone is amazing! I’d have gotten a gun and shot him dead before I put up with him that long and let him get as far as he did with her. My fear would’ve turned to such rage that I wouldn’t have been able to prevent myself from killing him if I had wanted to. Guys like Derek and Justin are so lucky and they don’t even know it. That’s because it could’ve been a bitch like me that they crossed. Someone who wouldn’t give a damn if she had to go to jail for taking a nut like that out of society and ultimately sparing other women from becoming their victims, too.

It’s a cool and cloudy day out today.

A fucking dog woke me up at 6 AM, but I fell back asleep till the alarm went off at 8:00. I’m holding my schedule to mornings till we go to the casino, which I’ve decided to do, then to afternoons when I see Scot. There’ll be 10 days between Scot and the doctor’s appointment, so I’ll probably do a flip there. How I miss the days when I’d have just 10-15 appointments a year if even that!

Paula left a message saying she might be doing 60 days in Ludlow for hitting her boyfriend and would be in court today. See? You get just 60 days there for assault, yet 180 days here for words on paper! She might get more community service, though.

Anyway, I sent Paula a letter. Hopefully, her wonderful associates will give it to her when she gets out of jail if she does do time.

Got this really neat new thing called Incredimail. It lets you colorize your email, use graphics, sounds, animations, etc. You can even record your voice if you want.