Yay for Obama for being reelected and yay for Maine for voting, for the first time ever, for marriage equality. The shitty thing is that they can take it away just as easily as they can give it, so I’m sure that at some point their rights will be bounced around like a yo-yo much like they were out here.

Maryland and Minnesota opted to remain haters in the dark ages. I still can’t believe it’s perfectly legal to discriminate against any group of people in what’s almost 2013.

Yesterday I was told that assuming sexist men were gay was insulting to gays. Not sure how they made that connection or what it was that I wrote to cause them to read that into my statement. I said I thought sexists were gay, not that gays were sexist. Nonetheless, that’s the impression they got; that it was insulting to gays.

Both Tom and Andy pointed out that they didn’t believe sexist men were closeted gays, and why. Tom’s point was basically that who you’re sexually attracted to has nothing to do with what you feel about people whether it’s an individual or a group of people. He has a point there, so I suppose that no, being sexist doesn’t always mean one’s gay. I’m sure I would still be sexist myself had I never been attracted to another woman. The way – not all but so many – guys think they’re oh so tough and God’s gift to women while they actually treat women like shit and have shit for brains is mostly why my attitude towards guys in general sucks. So yeah, I can see where not every sexist is gay, just like not every sexist hates every member of the opposite sex. I don’t care for men in general and I realize I tend to degrade them with some of the things I say, but obviously, I don’t hate every single man or else I wouldn’t be married to one and have male friends.

As always, though, I don’t expect everyone to agree with everything I talk about in my journal, and there’ll be no shed tears if anyone chooses not to read it. I was writing long before the Internet ever existed. I write for me first. Sharing is an afterthought, though I do appreciate the feedback I get. It’s always interesting to hear what people have to say.

Sexist, gay or not, I didn’t want Romney to win because of his expressed desire to get BC out of the hands of women and make it harder for them to control their own bodies. That’s all one has to say for me to know I don’t want them running my country. Mormons are also known to hate gays big time and they have no problem admitting that. Again, if you want to hate a group of people, why don’t you pick a group that has actually done something worth hating instead of asking to be treated the same as everyone else?

One guy said he voted against gay marriage because he “doesn’t believe in it.” See, that’s something I don’t get. Why can’t you not believe in something but still let others do what they want? Why should others not be able to have choices simply because of what you believe? I don’t believe in Taco Bell, but that doesn’t mean I’m going to go out of my way to try to do what I can to stop others from going to Taco Bell.

Later…

Another warm, dry, sunny day out there. I sometimes miss living where rain isn’t such a rarity but know I wouldn’t like the humidity. Just wish the Jes pest would get rained off the damn motorcycle more often than it does. Had to hear it come and go 3 times yesterday, then a round of barking. Believe it or not, I’ve only heard him come and go once so far today, but I’m sure he’ll make more runs between now and late afternoon. I know this cock, and yes, I am using my usual sexist terms and not worrying about whom I may offend. No subject or words can please literally everyone. I’m sure someone, somewhere could find something offensive in someone who wrote about knitting a scarf. But as always, the best way to guarantee you won’t be offended by one’s blog is to not read it at all. Not even if you’re an email recipient or at least receive notifications via email. As long as I’m not breaking the cyber laws (and I haven’t yet), I’m going to add crime to my list of reasons why I tend to be sexist. Men make up for WAY more crime than women do. When has a man ever been out at night and had to be afraid of a woman???

Still, not every guy is a piece of crime-riddled and insensitive while sensitive in the wrong kind of way piece of shit. Just like not all professions are “bad.” I condemn law enforcement regularly throughout my blog what with what happened to me and all the stories of corruption I hear going on out there, but it’s not the profession that’s bad, it’s the abuse of the profession that’s bad.

The world is still too full of unnecessary unfairness that could be righted if only people would care enough to do so. That’s great that Maine, for however long it may last, voted for marriage equality, but why do we still treat animals better than humans? Not one state in the country won’t put a terminally ill dog out of its misery, but only two states will do the same for people. Why is it still not ok for everyone to marry who they want in all states but it’s ok to smoke in public and gag some people out? Why can’t blacks be charged with hate crimes while whites can be called racist for even thinking about having a White History Month? Why are so many judges going easy on blacks in court for fear of being labeled as prejudiced while they’re quick to give others sentences that don’t fit their crimes at all? I have seen so many cases of assault, dangerous driving and theft end up with just 30 days in jail while people get thrown in jail for months simply for something they think or say or believe. A jaywalker will go down harder than someone who embezzles thousands of dollars from their boss. How backward is that?

I’m surprised I went down a pound after I pigged out yesterday. I read an article that said it’s best for our cholesterol and metabolism if we eat 9 times a day instead of 3-6 or sporadically. So I’ve scheduled 1 to 3-hour small eating sessions just to see if it makes a difference, but haven’t changed my menu. I’m still doing the Special K diet. Well, most of the time I am anyway, and I’m still working out 5-6 days a week.

I love to snack on sugar snap peas dipped in ranch dressing. Wish I liked carrots and celery as much but I can’t stand them.

I was even more surprised to find that ALL my short erotic stories are not only still there but they have 5 stars! Even the one with the embarrassing typo in it, LOL. How’d I miss that? Anyway, just look for NorCaliGirl, but watch out, they’re dirty as hell. These are mostly steamy scenes from a few of my books. I thought it was a good way to see how people rated them, and well, they sure got rated quite well.

The rat loves cheesy broccoli, but hey, rats love everything. Romeo is still too timid and too stupid for a rat but manageable. Still not sure if we should bring him back or just get him a roommate. He is a bit more curious now and taking food from my hand, but still not showing any desire to be handled and explore outside his cage.

Had a dream I was single and didn’t seem to know Tom. Tammy asked me to come stay with her and so I did. But instead of having a house in the east, she had an apartment in the south. Texas, to be exact.

In real life, she asked if I thought Larry’s kid had been born. Don’t know, don’t care. I don’t have any ill feelings toward him at this point; I just don’t consider him or what he’s up to any more than some stranger in another state or country. I do feel a touch bad for the kid and mistress, though. The kid’s father is going to be dead before it’s old enough to drink, and the mistress’s life is over before it’s even started.

I was thinking of the pigs. I wonder if they could be waiting till we move to pounce on me, figuring that that would make it harder for me to run if I owned a place, but even I know that’s a ridiculous and paranoid thought. If they wanted me that bad and had I really, truly broken any laws – and I didn’t – they’d have come around by now even though I’m in another state.

But the “case,” if one really was created by a real cop, may still be “active.” I remember Maliheh saying she had two years to file on the barking black ass next door. So who knows how long they could serve me if I were in their jurisdiction. Could be a year, could be a few years, could be forever. I still don’t know what the hell they think they ever had on me, so without knowing what they made up, I couldn’t begin to say. Obviously, they either didn’t make up anything that serious or “Juan D” was just a friend of theirs. Probably Jerry. He would have more than my whiteness or Jewishness or complaints against his buddy, fuck buddy or not, to be pissed at me for. He would have my lovely rating to want to spite me for as well.

Later…

Jesse just took off and the fucking mutts are going off now. But it’s after 11pm! Where the fuck can this cock be going now? Really getting sick of all this coming and going and having to hear about it every single fucking time.

Last night I could’ve sworn I had a dream that we got a 12K place. Even in a decent park that would get us a pretty nice place with the economy being so shitty. Not super new, but it has sufficient space and something that was plenty nice enough and may not have that old brown paneling I hate so much. However, the end of the mutts, motorcycles and loud trucks can’t be that near. If I let myself dwell on the fact that we’re going to be here well into 2013, though, I’ll want to scream. I will admit, however, that the mutts aren’t going off as long as they used to. Hours now seem to be minutes, not that hearing them and all the loud vehicles half a dozen times a day isn’t annoying enough. I didn’t come here for that.

According to Tom, Washington and Maryland did vote for gay marriage, so I guess we’re up to 9 states. 9 states that could take it all away. Once GLBT rights are as etched in stone as black’s, then I’ll be happy, not that this isn’t a start.

Andy agrees with me, though, and not Tom as far as whether or not Cali is liberal. Tom considers it liberal, but I don’t. Just because San Francisco and Hollywood are liberal doesn’t mean the state as a whole is liberal. Cali is very conservative and hateful. You just can’t ban gay marriage and call yourself liberal. That’s like slapping a person and then telling them you really do love them.

I might drop NaNoWriMo, not because I don’t intend to finish the story I’m working on but because it’s too short for their 50K word minimum. I’m trying to shorten my stories even more so I can write more stories faster.

This rat is such a sissy. Even a dumb rat should be smart enough to know it doesn’t need to run when I want to pick it up, and it should remember that nothing bad has ever happened to it anytime I’ve handled it in the past. Still don’t know if I want to keep Romeo. If I knew I could get him a roommate I liked better while he was content to remain in his cage, I’d keep him for cleaning purposes (they give each other spit baths and can clean places they can’t reach themselves) and to keep each other company when we go on vacation. But I don’t know that he wouldn’t hop on out of the cage with the door open when the other rat was out and I wasn’t around. All I do know is that getting him to return home won’t be an easy task. It’s just that when I let rats out I usually keep their door open in case they want to stop home for a drink or a potty call. Some go home when they’re tired of exploring, climb into their burrow, and go to sleep.